How come I feel so lost? Lack of energy and tired.. Is tis bcoz of my sickness dat haven fully recover or?

Have my sickness recovered? Yesterday fever come back and keep vomiting.. Feel so not well..
Wut happened to me? :(

keep sweating n feel so dizzy now

sure bcoz of medicines dat i took just now..

>.<

- the dizzy me -
- waikuen-

...

haizz.. sick liao.. at home now..

couldnt expect dat my body cannot affort to work to hard n lack of rest. tot myself very strong tim.. who know.. fall down liao..

yesterday half way work, feel not well..den go n c doctor.. only noe dat i have fever @.@ 40'c ..is this consider high?! kena injection.. >.< coz doctor say my body very hot n fever very high. need injection to reduse the temperature... wut to do? medicines again...

haizz.. now only i noe, i'm this weak..

- the sick cat @.@ -
- waikuen -

心情沉闷，很没心情，很不开心…到底我怎么了？我可不可以不要再这样情绪化下去了？

要停止一切我现在所做的东西，一点也不容易…很难得决定了要去读书，但一切并不是我想象中的简单…到头来，还是要面对我最讨厌的，做选择…
十七岁毕业，我逃避了选择，不知道要选哪一科来继续我学院的课程，我进了form 6，因为至少选择没那么多…两年以后，我毕业了，有事因为不会选择在大学报读那一科，我放弃了报名…结果没有像我多数同学们一样在就读大学…听了姐姐帮我做的选择，我就糊里糊涂地去fitness first应征…在没有任何地期待时，跑了去度假，就在期间突然间收到联络电话说我被纳入了…就这样进了这公司做工…想不到，我这么没有毅力的人，行行走走，就酱就呆了一年…

但突然间想到就这样迷迷糊糊地就拖了四年…从十七岁到现在的二十一岁…如果我要读书的话，应该是时候了吧…逃避下去也不是办法…岁月不留人…再不读书就会老了啦…但一切一切都没想象中简单…

所有人都叫我去读书…而我也确有此想法…突然间令一个人就对我说，读书会浪费你时间，既然你现在赚到钱，为什么要回去读书，去浪费时间，浪费钱…毕业以后又要从头来过，而且别人未必会请你，工作经验比较重要！很多大学生都找不到工…一就是大学生认为公司开的价钱不是他们所辛苦读来的文凭所值得的，或公司认为请不起所说的大学生…

选择啊选择…为什么啊？

Appointment come already.. Gtg.!

-the confuse + moody me-
-waikuen-

叶子掉下了，并不代表树不要它。大树爱惜叶子，也不代表叶子就永远不会掉下。叶子的离开，不管是风的追求，还是树的不曾挽留，都终会有离开的一天…

其实我真的很喜欢这里…
不然就不可能可以在这里呆一年了…可是人终要进步…一直往前走…
也许从一个已出来社会工作的人，倒回去读书，可以说是后退…但至少也是我学业上的一个前进…

小鸟在笼子了温暖舒服了一年，从不愁吃喝，主人的宠爱让它活得很开心自在…但飞出去笼子，应该也有它平时学不到，也看不了的东西…外面世界的精彩也有另一番风景…
虽然辛苦，但至少有它平时得不到的，自由……

小鸟要展翅高飞了！鸟儿们，欢迎它吧！

希望我不会后悔这决定吧！支持我吧！

P/s : 离开得了再说…哈哈…

-难得心情开朗的我-
- waikuen -
=)

Today feel so happy and released.. Suddenly feels so excited thinking I'm going to study, perhaps.. Haha.. I love school life.. =)

And guess I have my decision.. Dat I hardly can make..

Thinking dat i'm gonna designing my own house.. Simple and nice one will be good.. =)

Giving up doesnt means you are weak,sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go..

Should I stay?

Should I leave?

. . . . . .

Know u r tired.. Pls don let urself too tired till exhausted.. Take carEz .. Have a good rest..

Just read ur blog..

Qing yi, thx for everything..
Thx for alwiz be with me..
Thx for alwiz support me..
Thx for everything..
And Sorry for making u sad or not happy..

Qing yi, i'll alwiz appreciate u.. U r the best =)

I noe between us No need to say anything.. Coz in silence, both of us talk by heart, understanding each other.. I noe u alwiz be by me, and I'll alwiz be by you.. Tats y I love to share all my happiness and sadness together with u..

I appreciate u as my best frenz.. <3

- Gemini starz gal-
- waikuen -

是我做得不够好，还是我不够努力去做？close不到的 sales是我的错？当然是我的错…要不然就不会被叫进老板室内了…被老板讲了半小时多，眼泪差点就流下，还好没有…最上次也是好像酱被老板叫了进去，竟然在老板面前哭了一个小时…是我太软弱吗？怎么酱没用？还蛮没用吧…什么都做不成…想想还真的自己做得不好…一次又一次让老板失望…还真没用…想想我是不是真的适合在这里做…

昨天我很开心，真的很开心…因为昨天和一班朋友在一起…kah weng, ken ken, alex and mikey..谢谢你们把快乐带给我…我很珍惜一起度过，一起玩，一起笑，一起傻，一起拍照的每一刻…昨天真的很棒，说真的，很久没有酱笑过了…

现在…HaiZzZ...不想再提了…

好心情毁了…

- the moody me - waikuen -
　

心情日记~

These days altot sometimes kinda moody, But still there's something interesting and happy happened.. Hehe..

These dayz I get to know a few new frenz dat very interesting and funny.. One of them is now my little brother named kah weng..Haha..

In my meaningless life here, kah weng brings alotz of happiness for me and help me to search back my life..Haha.. So recently I alwiz go yam cha with him, and his frenz and of coz with my dearie Qing yi and frenz.. We alwiz having a wonderful tea time together,at night after my works..

Yesterday, like usual.. WE go yam cha,with kah weng,ken ken,Qing yi and xiao teng.. Haha.. I'm driving, so call driving.. Coz yea, i'm stepping On the oil stepper, But kah weng is holding the sterling.. Scare till ken dat sitting behind till half dead.. I'm driving manual car summore.. Drivers dat passing by my car also look at me like so shock..Haha.. Naughty me and kah weng.. >.< we r driving together.. But Its very ok la.. No car On the road also.. And I fully confident with my brother, altot he have No licence yet.. Xp and of coz, we arrived destination safely.. Ken ken's heart almost drop.. XD

Drinking session.! Too bad.. My fav mango ice don have.. >.< each of us ordered our drink lo.. Wen ken's drink arrived, Haha.. WE saw a clear lipstick sign On the cup.! Oh man.. Summore he's drinking milk.. Den ken and kah weng busy taking pic for the evidence.. Den I tot ken will drink like dat lo~ But who knows, kah weng suddenly say out loud, calling the waiter, Hey, u come and c.. Why got lipstick de? Susu from perempuan ke? I tot we ordered susu lembu? Den complaint about it.. =.=! Za dao.. After busy taking pic only wanna complaint.. Say wanna post it up at web worr.. Haha.. So funny la them.. Enjoy the wonderful tea time together !

In my life of 20th.. I go thru alotz.. In brand new year of 2010, till now, the best part is getting kah weng as my brother.. Haha.. Really very cute guy he is.. XD But sometimes he is so naughty.! Coz he is staying so near to my house, so I will fetch him to work as he is working nearby also.. Biasalah.. I'm late again.. Wen i'm rushing to his house to fetch him, who knows he hiding beside my car in front of my house den suddenly say Hi.. Made me almost heart attack and scream till so loud.. Ever since I scream till like tis.. So embarrassed.. Beside that, alwiz kacao me with the sound effect from his phone.. So naughty.! Knowing him two weeks already half dead of get frighten by him, after month sure got heart attack.. >.< But thx him also la.. Bring a lot of happiness to my meaningless life as well.. XD

Haha.. In process searching back my life.. He said will help me to fine it back.! =) well, will wait and see..

<3,
- waikuen -

i'm back!

pity my little blog, dead for quite some time..now its time to alive it back!


compared to last time..its has been more den half yar nvr update my bloggie liao.. >.<

just a little news to tell everyone, i'm still fine..haven die yet.. lolz!


time really flies..within a blink, i had graduated from f6 more den a year..from year 2008 till 2009 n now 2010..from 19 years old till 20 years old n coming to 21 years old..getting older n older.. >.<

5th january 2009..the first day i worked with Fitnesss first.. Till now, 5th january 2010.. i'm still here..is this a good news or bad news..kinda shock dat someone dat alwiz impatient like me can stay at this company for a year n i'm still here.. most of my frenz went for future studies, except me.. >.<>.<

in this whole year i have been working with fitness first.. i learned alots n passes thru alotz.. alotz of happiness.. alotz of sadness.. alotz of experience.. alotz of frenz.. outlook appearance also changed alotz.. lolz.. i started with receptionist n now i changed to membership consultant.. last time hair in black, now hair in gold.. but still, i'm alwiz the blur blur one.. haha.. i alwiz bang on the door n bang on the wall of my office.. till all my colleagues used to it.. u bang on door again ar?! biasalah..haha!

i'm happy wen i worked as receptionist coz all of us is like my family, we all love each other, my beloved jie jie- eleven, ezan, shereen, qing yi.. worked as membership consultant make me exhausted coz working really long hours..nice experience working as a salesperson.. i'm tired with the office politic actually.. i hate the back stab from them.. we all is a team but yet, all is stabbing each other from behind.. dont they feels tired? is that helps? for me, i just listen n say nothing.. freaking tired of working liao still wanna waste time n energy do others meaningless things, really dont understand them..

working as salesperson.. i have kinda amount of members.. i alwiz called them up or sms them to wish them happy birthday, happy new year, merry christmas, and if they is in club, i bought them a slice of cake..haha.. wen they happy, i also will happy.. i very good with all my members actually..sometimes thinking of resigning..but once i resign, like very irresponsible coz i signed them up, but in the end leave them.. >.<

seriously after i worked.. my life is all about fitness first.. really so LIFELESS.. i worked at FF, workout at FF, meet all ppl also in FF, know frenz also from FF, scandals also from FF.. sometimes really kinda sienz..

but sometimes i'm glad coz get to know alotz of nice frenz.. sometimes wen i sad, pretend manja den i can get some sweets sweets.. haha.. i like sweets sweets n ice cream.. haha.. oh ya..thinking of sweets sweets, someone owe a candys from taiwan, will get from the person wen i c that person..haha! i like mc flurry ice cream from mc D.. last time wen i sad, someone used to accompany me n buy me an ice cream..we used to meet up at the same mcD n chat there.. nice memories =) that moment has gone, but memories is alwiz in my mind.. thx anyway =)

another things dat make me happy of coz wen ppl achieved their results la..everyone joined us also have their own reason..some ready for competition, wanna train stamina , some wanna maintain a healthy lifestyle, mostly is to lose weight n re-shaping, and build up muscles.. i'm happy wen all my members told me happily wen they said that they achieved they results.. some told me their lose up 5-6kg in a month, some says their diabetis leval decrease, no need eat so many medicines n feels themselves light.. they are really happy working out in FF coz can achieve results, more happy n have friendly ppl like me ^^..lolz!

people happy den i'm happy lo~

hmm.. after all my works updates.. wanna noe more bout my personal life updates? curious dat i'm still single n available or taken.. this question not gonna answer u..discover it urself if wish to noe..haha.. one thing dat nvr change is i still very good with qing yi.. qing yi still alwiz be by me all this long.. haha.. she knows everything bout me.. thx qing yi =) but i hope she will nvr leave me after she together with her bf~ haha.. Qing Yi is in LOVE..!!~ haha!

hmm.. today updates till here la.. more update soon.. wanna know more latest one..better check my facebook actually.. http://www.facebook.com/wk0531


lots of love,
-waikuen-
07/01/2010
dat still in broken heart mood..