sad..

actually tot i'm the one dat wanna resign.. but in the end.. the one dat resigned is my manager, kallon.. very very sad actually..

from the day i become membership consultant.. i noe he has put a lotz of time, efforts, energy in training me.. actually without him, without me today..

i'm someone dat very emotional alwiz.. but he alwiz cheer me up and help me alotz in all my way doing sales..i really appreacite him alot.. i'm glad that when everytime i wanted to give up but he didnt give up me.. thanks for alwiz motivate me and bring me up wen i'm down. show me the light wen i've lost my way.. thankz alotz.

now he want to leave us already.. actually there's no word can express my sadness of his leaving.. he will be working with others fitness club..

i really wish that he will stay here together with us.. but i dont wish to stop him thru his way of success and happiness.. i wish him all the best over there..

truly appreacite u! will miss u alwiz =)

everyone here come and go.. but i'm still here.. haizz.. why leh? >.<

- with sad feeling me -
- waikuen -

haha..i'm now at CC, typing my bloggie dat i didnt update for long time.. first time.. my colleague, jeffrey brought me here.. coz today no boss, very free.. lolz.. dont laugh at me la.. i really never been to CC before ma..

haizz.. wondering why i only post sad sad things in my blog ar? nothing happy happen in my life recently ar? >.<

oh yea.. got!

on 21st of may, i've my wonderful 21st bday celebration together with my beloved frenz, Joanne leong, siin yan and franciz.. thanks for the present and the early celebration coz i'm going on holidays for my birthday =)

but of coz, wanna wish my dear frenz, siin yan, happy 21st bdaY!!~ now u can went to casino officially.. lolz.. i noe u already been there on the first day of ur bday.. haha.. take me go along next time.. soon..! just 1 more week to go only.. =D

everyday working, really feel very tired.. but, today is the last working day for this month, i am going on leave for my bday.. i'm going to redang together with my colleague, pinky.. haha.. cant wait for that day.. at last i can rest and enjoy.. wanna get tanned like jeffrey dat just back from his holidays at phuket.. =D

21st birthday, HERE I COME..! =)


the first the serving internet in cyber cafe, me,
- waikuen-
=)

前几天鼓起勇气走进老板室里跟老板说过我要辞职，昨天走进老板办公室里，终于把辞职信拿给我老板了…我双手拿着信给他，他也双手接起我的信，突然间有心跳加速的感觉，双眼看着他就这样把我的辞职信给撕了！丢进垃圾桶里！突然间看着他，天啊，这是怎么一回事？当场傻掉…

之前同事们一直都不相信，包括我自己也不相信…以为我玩玩罢了，想不到我真的敢敢丢信了…哈哈…

也许我原因说服不了我老板放人吧…也许是我工作表现？不知道…我真的真的很累了…精神和身体都很累…每天工作从早到晚…也许我得到的工钱不少…现在的我什么都不缺…要什么，喜欢些什么，我都有能力，有本事自己买…唯一缺的就是时间…每天想着如果我有多几小时睡觉，那该多好……

在这里工作，越来越找不到方向…没日没夜，每一天都一样…真的越来越不知道为了什么…值得吗？

有时真的很羡慕，我所有的朋友同学都还在读书学习…只有我在工作…但有时他们却看好我的生活，可以靠自己，从不愁吃穿…其实我们都你看我好，我看你好罢了…各有各的辛苦和困难…只是我们的时间用在不同的方面罢了……

除了迷惘，还是迷惘…

信是给了…也给撕了…老板撕了以后就这样笑笑的离开了…天啊，这是什么一回事？答案呢？？就这样结束？！？我留下？到底怎么了？意义又是什么？

我不明白……

HaizZ....
- the blur blur confused me -
-waikuen-

Today actually very moody de.. Because my colleages all go out together and having their lunch together and lefted me behind alone due to someone need to stay in the club to do those presentation in case somebody walk in enquiry for membership.. So damn sad that moment.. Because I really hate lefted behind alone..

Den after they all come back.. I don bother them and don wanna talk with them including my boss.. Obviously they know i'm very unhappy because of that and of coz I merajuk by without saying a single word.. Angry and sad.!

Then after awhile.. Suddenly my boss say got something I need to do, to drop flyers.. Ask me to follow.. Den ok lo.. Boss ma.. Fine.. Follow lo..

Who knows, in the end, he brought me to mcD and bought me my favourite mcFlurry ice cream.. Haha.. That's wut I alwiz eat when i'm sad.. Haha.. Wut a suprise.. =)) he knows and remember that I alwiz need ice cream when i'm unhappy.. At last I smile back.. Haha.. I like the suprise and ice cream by u.. =)

Thanks.!

With the sweet smile me,
-waikuen-
=)

long time din update my blog already..

so pity, like dead already my blog..

actually i alwiz wanna update, but just too busy and yea, too much things to share..so dunno start from where...

...

lame..

-waikuen-

Back to the problem again..

To study? To continue working?

Last time really feel like going back to study.. But now.. Suddenly feel like don wanna let go wut i'm having right now.. Besides than no time, my works really give me everything I want.. Especially now my business, my sales is getting better.. I can work more easily den can get business already.. And in the end give me salary dat allow me to give my family more money, can go shopping without thinking budget.. Buy car, handphone, laptop, go holidays using own money without needing me to ask from parents.. Its not dat I money minded, but my works provide me with free workout, free uniform, Use company phone to call clients, no need me go out, under the sun or rain to get sales.. And work place So near to my house.. And I like working here as well, altot it will be very tired sometimes and u don have much time left for myself.. But no pain no gain.. Sure must give out something to get something..

But now my mummy and sister is talking back that issues.. Asking me back to study..

How how how?

Again.. HATE making decision.!
The confuse me..
-waikuen-

以前终是开心地笑，伤心地哭…所有的喜怒哀乐都会摆在脸上，一点都不会掩饰自己的情绪…所有人都知道我的心情，而我也对他们说，这就是我…

但现在…不知何时开始，我终于学会，对人时，终是笑着的，但当自己一个人时，就把笑容收起来，一幅moody的样子…是好事？是坏事？也许我真的很累，累到已笑不出来…可是身为客户服务员，我一定要笑口常来，笑脸迎人…

好累…好累…好想休息…好想远离这里…去一个安静的海边度假……

这个地方，还可以待多久？还要待多久？

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