thankz..

happy biRthdaY, FrancKen..!!~

-10th february 2009-

today is a special day..
coz it's Francken big day.. ^^

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY..!!!~

got my day off today..

but unfortunately..

he's not free to go out..

he's having his exams next week..

starving from stress..

pity him.. =(

somehow..

of coz..

i called him to wish him happy birthday..

gosh..

i miss him so so so much..

i have a very very best time chatting with him..

very happy..^^

since i've long time din see him n talk with him either..

he even played a song for me in the phone..

the melody from his piano, so nice..n touched..

love it so much.. =)

just wish to c him soon..

really miss him alotz..

anyway..

wish u have a happy birthday..

n may ur wonderful dreamz come true..!

wishing u all of life best today n alwiz..^^

love u the most..

for the previous time,now,alwiz n ever..

thx for exist in my life.. =)

with love,

-waikuen-

some words to u..

to chan qing yi..

i noe u r reading my blog..
there's some word i wanna say to u..

first of all..
really sorry for my childish attitude all the time..
sorry for annoyed u..
sorry coz i alwiz get angry easily..
but u never hate me or angry me..
it make me feel more guilty..
everytime after like i 'scolded' u..
but another day u sure din angry me n smile n talk with me..
like nothing happened at all..
it make me really touched..
n realised how terrible i am..
sorry..

n..
most important..
just go ahead..
follow ur dreamz..
ur career as well..
no matter how please i am hoping u r not leaving..
but..
if i still blocking u..
for seaching ur happiness n career..
i really dont have the qualification to be called as ur frenz..
a frenz shouldnt stop u for looking for ur hapiness..
n keep asking u to stay,as i noe how much u dont like to stay there..

i still wanna be ur frenz..
so..i wont stop u for doing any decision dat will make urself happy...
just go ahead..
i will support u morally n mentally..

to tell u..
the way of bcuming a personal trainer/ fitness instructor is not easy..
n can be said very very tough..
u must add oil..!
remember..no matter how hard ur life is..
no matter how stress u r in ur coming day..
no matter u r sad or happy..
i'll alwiz here..
just look for me ba..!
coz tat's wut a frenz for..
give u punch me also nvm la..
haha..

so lo..
altot i dont believe in forever frenz..
but hopefully..
v can be best frenz..reaching for forever..
haha..

yea..tat's all..

c ya..

=)


ur truly,
the naughty me,
-waikuen-
^^

updates..

hmm..long time din update my blog already.. T.T

its 5th feb already..means..its already been a month since i start working..haha..
time flies..din realise it tim..
n of coz..salary coming out soon..!! muahaha..
i just cant wait to go shopping.. ^^

today my manager asked me whether i wanna change bcum a permanent worker anot..since i'm a part timer over there..if i wanna change..she will send me to training..haizz..decision again..i really dunno..should i continue?????

guess wut let me think so long..??
its bcoz of tat chan qing yi lo..
she dont wanna continue working as front of house already..
she want to bcum fitness instructor liao..
n LEAVE ME ALONE..!!!!
haiz..sad la...
chan qing yi..! i noe u got read my blog..
harr?!?! how dare u treat me like this????
sad ah..!!!
blek..! Xp

actually i kinda happy working over there..
ppl over there quite nice..^^
n playful..like me..^^ haha..
think back dat day..my manager suddenly asked me whether i am happy anot working there?
dunno why..tat time really dunno how to answer her..
haha..


ah.!! actually very tired now..
just back from work..
n disappointed..
coz my workout plan canceled..
i went shopping with qing yi liao..
haiz..
too bad..

n now..
the most important thing to do..
is to prepare something really special for my beloved brother, francken bday..
haiz..really no idea wut to give him..n do for him..
10th of February summore..
no time..!!!

haha..
think back dat day i told my colleague dat i purposely working just to buy present for francken..
they really believe it..
swt..
but it kinda true also..
one of the point..
haha..

dunno wut to update liao..
tired..

biggest wish now..
is can do something special for francken..
n..
dont wish qing yi to leave me..
haiz..
but i guess also no hope de la..
but if she can do something dat she like n make her happy..
den go ahead..
just all the best ba..

..haha.. got to go..
byez..
=)

-waikuen-

the answer..

kinda busy this recently..
so long time din update blog already..
but guess my blog not popular also..
no one will view it..haha..

just passing by to drop down the answer for tat question..

the answer is 22..

the reason..

" one sweet with one wrapper cost RM1.00..
RM 15.00 can get 15 sweets..
den tat 15 sweet wrappers can be change with 5 more sweets..
among the 5 sweet wrappers, 3 can change 1 more sweet..
tat 1 more sweet + the lefted 2 more sweet wrappers can get 1 more sweet.. "

15+5+1+1 = 22

tats the answer..
discover it out..


bye^^


tats all from me today..
tired..just back from work..



from,
the tired me,
waikuen..

let gueSs...

here is a question asked by one of my frenz.. ^^

let guess..see whether u all can get the right answer anot..

drop me a comment to tell me the answer..haha..


it sounds....

" every sweet will got it wrapper..
n of coz..one sweet only got one sweet wrapper right..
one sweet cost for RM 1.00..
n..every three sweet wrapper can be change to get one sweet..
now u R given RM 15.00..
how many sweet tat u can get in the end?!? "


haha..tell me the answer as soon as possible..

will tell the right answer in my next post..

c ya..hehe..


p/s: answer with explanation..why u guess tat much of sweet..^^

my mood diary..

19 Jan 2009

haiz...
i'm getting more n more depress n confused..
i dunno wut should i do...

today after work..tot wanna workout..after changing..
haiz..no mood to workout liao..
run like hell..also cant make the sadness in my heart away..

ended up..go back to the changing room..
hugging my bag..
think back the incident tat make me so sad..
my tears started to roll down... :'(

i squat down in front of my locker..
n keep crying..
while there's so many ppl passing by...
guess everyone is thinking..wut happened to this gal...

i am really sad..
thinking why am i crying..
besides than cry..wut else i can do..?!

suddenly..my blade dropped out from my bag..
it makes me think back..my last time..dat i used to do so..
i cut my wrist whenever i'm sad..
in my mind..how much i hope dat my sadness will go away as my wrist bleeding with all the blood roll down...

but.. this time i din do so..
dunno wut makes me stop doing this..
maybe think back my childishness for doing so..
coz..its doesn't help..if i do so..
but.i really dunno..how long i can hold for not doing this...

i hate myself for being so emotional..!
i hate myself for dunno how to control my emotion..
i hate myself for being so useless..
i hate myself for being so terrible..
i hate to noe dat i'm nothing, compared with others....

wut should i do?!

wut can i do?!?

i really cant hold anymore..
run toward the running machine n speed up n try to run,run n run..
but its still no help..
stopped the machine..
run out of fitness first..
to cool myself down..

after awhile..
i back to FF..
to bath..
wishing to wash away my sadness..
wash away the pain of my heart..
i still remember how hot the water i put..
my skin n face was so red..n pain actually..
but..my sadness still with me...

I'm sad..!!
I'm depress..!!
I'm confused..!!
I'm dying.............


i need help.....



-waikuen-