~ wAi KuEn's WoRLd ~

2012-02-16T14:03:00.000+08:00

besides than love, wut else?

Journey as Mrs Pung

2011-12-28T16:09:00.006+08:00

To Be Continue...

-waikuen-

Counting down..

2011-10-15T06:23:00.002+08:00

Counting down..

0630hrs now.. counting down 0030hrs more for my today night shift to end..
Its Lichee last night shift.. Tomorrow will be working with fiffy.. Lichee first week of his night shift while its my last week of working night shift.. Working night shift with him really nice, except than the boring him.. LOL.. not so close with him, so he dint talk much.. he only watching drama in youtube while im just facing the facebook, not much conversation we have but he is nice dat alwiz helping me to do my jobs as well.. so hardworking.. ngek ngek ngek.. will miss the day (night) working with u.. :D

Counting down..

This week am doing 7 days of night shift.. Today is the 4th night.. counting down 3 more nights to go.. Am tired n sleepy tho.. last time i like night shift.. now feels sleepy.. guess i lazy liao.. Awaiting tomorrow night shift with silly Fiffy.. lol.. i love to bully n tease her.. funny n nice gal she is actually..

Counting down..

I resigned n my last working day with Traders Hotel falls on 23rd October 2011.. Today is the 15th.. Sitll got 8 days to go with 7 working days.. What a short period am staying here.. Will miss everything i did here.. its a very nice experience i have by working in hotel line.. never think bout it before that i could work in a hotel.. haha.. guess it will help me lots in my future career.. :D

Counting down..

Mr P birthday on 24th Oct oh.. hehe.. Dunno wut i can do to surprise him.. dunno wut present to buy.. where to bring him go makan.. hmm.. hmm.. hmm..

Counting down..

Counting down 13 days to go.. Me n Mr P will be husband n wife legally on 28th Oct 2011.. haha.. Its our ROM day..!! We planed to register on 11/11/11 before, den changed to 20/11/2011.. Den in the end we decided to register on 28th Oct as its our anniversary date.. Special n memorable date for us.. We r so glad dat we able to step to another stage of our life on our anniversary date.. Love u.. :))

Counting down..

Counting down.. 12th Nov, my tea ceremony.. Officially Mrs Pung according to chinese tradition.. Nervous.! :)

Counting Down..

26th Nov, my wedding reception in Berjaya Times Square hotel..! hehe.. Awaiting to see u all on that day..!!~

With Love,
-waikuen-

:D

12th October 2011..

2011-10-12T03:55:00.004+08:00

It has been a while since i updated my blog..

The last time i really update it is bout the third weeks im working with Traders Hotel Kuala Lumpur.

And now, October already.. Time flies.. It already 7 months passed thru since i started to work here on March 2011..

Last month i tendered my resignation.. As I'm moving forward to another stage of my life.. Feels not willing to resign this time as it feels like to soon I have been here. I should have stay longer.. But i respect my future family decisions.. They dont wish me to work night shift anymore as my body i weak n i need to rest well to have a strong body..

12th October 2011..

My first day of my last time working night shift in Traders Hotel.. Working with Lichee.. His first week of night shift after working here so long.. Heard that its a tough night for him.. haha.. Good Luck boy..

Time flies.. Nervous Leh! Today is 12th October.. Only one month left to get marry to my new family.. Becoming Mrs Pung very soon.. haha.. My tea ceremony is on 12th November.. hohoho.. A lots of ppl keep asking me how do i feels.. seriously i dont really have any special feeling yet, maybe it still not really near yet, so still not feeling the pressure.. lol..

Yesterday went for food tasting with Jackson's family n my family at Berjaya Times Square Hotel.. Everything is just great.. I love my ballroom.. Seems so grand.. Awaiting for my wedding reception on 26th November 2011.. Praying hard everything will go smooth..! Cant wait to meet up with all Ji Mui.. It has been so long didnt meet up with them ever since i started to work.. Time so limited as i cant manage to meet up with them.. Feels so bad..

Back to working topic.. I love my colleague actually.. We laugh, we making noice n having fun together.. Being in Service Centre really nice ( thinking last time dont feels like being in here.. Feel guilty..lol) I miss my boss, my only n beloved boss in my heart, Ratish aka my daddy in Service Centre.. He lefted us one month earlier than me.. Hmm.. Sad.. Noisy Pei Pei also left us n went to reception! Now we have Hot mummy Siti, Shin Chan Steve, Tall boy Lichee, Sexy long leg Susan ( as per Lichee), loving mummy Balqish, Nizam wifey Kak Ziera, Super noisy Chindian Sharon, Most ngam Cheryl, Cute Fiffy, Big daddy Iskandar..

Im Leaving liao! Two more week to go.. will be missing u all..

Hope u all will miss me too.. Even once in awhile im satisfied too.. haha.. i love being misses.. :P

Am so glad im stepping to my another step of life on that special day.. Last but not least.. Love u JP.. :D

-with Love-
-waikuen-

2011-09-22T21:14:00.002+08:00

life really unpredictable..

however..

remember god would never take something away from you without the intention of replacing it with something much better..

we love you..

-waikuen-

The Moments of LoVe ❤

2011-09-21T23:36:00.003+08:00

to be continue..

❤

-waikuen-

Ha Ha..

2011-09-02T05:04:00.001+08:00

For those who might view my blog once a while..

I'm Passing By.. lol..

:D

-waikuen-

2011-04-05T20:12:00.002+08:00

3rd weeks already i'm with my new company! didnt realised it.. time really flies.. still in my training period.. and exams soon.. study study study! wish i can do well here.. i wanna be recognize! ngek ngek ngek.. smile (evil) :P hopefully can stay longer with this company la.. wish me luck! so happy with my current life right now.. works... gym... and dating.. haha.. love it.. love him.. -waikuen- =)

Current Life..

2011-03-23T18:55:00.002+08:00

Day 3 in Traders Hotel..

Still in my orientation week.. so everyday was sitting inside a room.. looking at the slide, presentation and role play whole day from i started to work till i finished work.. eyes is pain and sleepy of coz.. but alots of new things to learn.. That's why i alwiz love training.. including now.. :)

Today learn about smarTraders.. a brand new training in this hotel.. to prepare ourself and empowering our skills to build Traders own empirer as Traders alwiz known under the umbrella of Shangri-La Hotels..

smarTraders training is cool.. Like it alotz.. train by Mr Derick.. He's a man full with experience and hold very high position in all around the world for shangri-la hotels.. he just came back from Maldives.. wow.. hehe.. his training full with energetic, full and cool.. but really got alotz of things to memorize.. and must memorize it coz my exams is coming.. within this week summore.. but i'm excited.. :P

dunno since when i like exams.. since i started in fitnessfirst i guess.. coz been thru alotz of exams in FF and score very well in all my every exams.. :P i like new challenge and i like to study study.. haha..

i started to like my hotel that i'm working with.. guess i will get a very good experience thru this job.. this hotel is full with passionate and ready to fight for our very own empirer and name.. not as much rules and regulation like others hotels, alotz of freedom towards our own preference like hair style etc and more to friendly and young style.. i likey! most important is let me walk out from my lost world dat i alwiz be.. saw my sunshine and rainbow here.. i mean to my career.. not leng zai or leng lui coz i didnt see any yet! :P

training.. training.. and training.. tough time when feels sleepy but its cool to learn new things.. a lotz i mean... let me enjoy my training time first before started to work properly.. started my engine but haven walk yet.. full of mystery and challengesssssss coz i dunno what's next yet.. but would like to explore whatever job scope i got.. its so excited and make my heart beeps faster.. seems fun, but scary.. the feelings of waiting and hoping.. good or bad i am gonna take it.. hard time now will make my life easier after all the hard works and experience.. after that then i will have a chance to go different place, different property under shangri-la in oversea to gain new experience.. if i still working here so long.. really a good move for my career if i really do have the chance..

OOOOOPPPS.. i 4gt bout family.. if i were get married, as plan.. how's everything will go.. miserable life..

btw.. EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED..!

oh yea.. only realised.. i started to 4gt things bout FF dat i very confident and clear all the time.. time really can change everything.. or i'm too excited bout my new job.. and of coz.. its good.. at last i manage to put down those that i dont willing to 4gt or too clear everything bout FF before this till cant 4gt.. happy.. :)

ITS TIME TO MOVE ON...!!~ MOVE on..!~

I like to move it move it.. u like to move it move it.. we like to, MOVE IT..! wakaka..

Last but not least.. Life so perfect and blessedness now.. having my beloved him, my beloved family and career now.. everything will be fine and go on like this.. love it.. LOVE U..!!~

* me sitting in Fitness First Avenue K( wondering? i joined back as member here, that's why i am here.. hehe), completing my blog post.. :) ooopss, i suppose to do my work out! nah.. nvm.. muscle pain after body attack class yesterday.. tomorrow only do la.. hehe.. excuses as usual.. blek!~ :P

With love,
-waikuen-

New beginning..

2011-03-21T22:57:00.002+08:00

after 4 months of doing nothing at home.. now i started my new job.. officially started today 21st March 2011.. hope it will be a good one for me..

this time i gt another challenge to myself, which I've never try before - hotel line.. cool hurr.. guess so..

New job designation is work as Guest Service Agent, Traders Hotel.
not so famous but if u google it, still can find it..

Traders hotel.. its a 5 stars hotel which located at KLCC.. a sister hotel with the famous Shangri-la Hotels.. its a nice hotel anyway..

today started my first orientation day... which as usual.. whatever company details and history we study.. i like study :P together with my 7 new friends, total 8 persons we started our new beginning in here..

of coz besides than study, of coz we have some tour in the hotel.. guess will gone missing somewhere coz walk thru staff entrance and inside the hotel dat guest use to be.. best part is i get to know more bout the hotel which i'm going to work with.. VERY NICE view the hotel have as its facing KLCC.. but worst part is my leg in pain by wearing the high heels walking all day long.. suffering..

the part dat i like the most in the hotel in the view of coz.. Especially the famous SKY BAR.. located at 33rd floor of traders hotel, roof top.. but not open air.. its really really nice.. believe me.. :P its a must to go for a try atleast once coz its really freaking cool.. Swimming pool is at the bottom of the bar.. try imagine at night when u having ur drinks over there, looking at the stars, the nice sky view, the view of KL city and the reflection of those light at the pool.. how cool it is.. but pre caution.. do not get drunk over there as u might fall into the pool if u didnt aware it.. and make sure u r 21 years old above before u trying to enter the club.. :P

others facilities are cool and nice as well.. nice hotel to stay with i guess..

end my day one orientation with the tour.. that all.. :)

after finish den walk over to Menara MBF to look for my someone special.. :P den we go home together~~

Hopefully i can manage to stay longer in this new place..

New beginning..

wish me luck!

:)

with love,
-waikuen-

双子座女子

2011-03-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

双子座女子

双子座女子像一个万花筒，一会儿变一个花样，你似乎永远弄不清她真正的形状。有人说一个女人欣赏或吸引的男人，总会有一定的典型。但对于双子座的女子来说可就不一定了。由于她双重，甚至多重的个性，她所欣赏的、吸引的男性，可就是各种类型都有了！
　　
这么听起来，你的处境好象有点四面楚歌的样子！不过你应该能够了解，其它的男人也跟你一样很难抵抗她的魅力。凭良心说，双子座的女子实在很有趣，她可以像个小男生一样，陪你上山下海的疯狂玩乐；也可以正经八百的跟你聊天文地理！当然，她更会像个小公主一样跟你花前月下温柔缠绵。她是那么的充满着乐趣和变化！只可惜她对你的态度，也是变化多端，难以捉摸。你以乎很难理解，为什么昨天才令她痴迷的优点，今天竟成了被她嗤之以鼻的缺点。先不要伤心，也不要生气！你应该先冷静下来，认真的了解一下这个让你开心又叫好你烦心的小精灵。
　　
双子座的女子有着丰富无比的想象力，而在现实的生活中，爱情似乎是让她发挥想象力的最佳园地，她几乎可以在每一个爱情故事中，成功的扮演着不同的角色。因此很多人批评双子座的女子把爱情当成游戏。对于一些年纪很轻的双子座女孩来说，游戏的成分多少是有那么一些的，但是请你务必相信，在每一个双子座女子的心里，都有着对于爱情天长地久的渴望。但是她们的多重个性，总是让她在欣赏你某些优点的同时，又在挑剔你可能有的缺点。比方说，她很可能在赞美你的艺术天份的同时，又批抨你太过软弱！这样反复的情绪下，最困扰的人并不是你，而是她自己。因为双子座的女子通常都会独自处理自己的心情，你顶多只会觉得她忽冷忽热而已。
　　
跟一个双子座的女子相处，唯一避免自己受伤，又能与她相处融洽的方式，就是自己不断的变。多变的生活和气氛会让她生趣盎然，更会保持她对你的热爱。你可以尽情的发挥自己多样的才华，不必担心她会无法适应，双子座的女子不会是个黏人的橡皮糖。不过，不要冷落她太久，寂寞的等待，不是个双子座女子容易忍受的事，否则，她忘记你的速度，肯定会让你心碎。
　　
我刚才说过了，双子座女性的善变会随着年龄的成长日趋稳定。尤其是当她答应与你携手共度此生之后，聪明的她，会很理性的要求自己做一个称职的妻子。你应该相信她的反应灵活，适应性绝佳，办事效率极高，扮演妻子的角色是难不倒她的。除非你非要严格地要求她作个传统的家庭主妇。否则你一定会庆幸自己娶了个可爱又多变的娇妻。
　　
你不会有一个整天板着脸，抱怨家用钱不够的黄脸婆。相反地，当你烦恼钱赚得太少的时侯，她可能会帮你想一大堆赚外快的点子。你可能那天下班回家的时侯，发现她把家里所有的家俱都重新安置的焕然一新。也可能打开门之后发现她一个人沮丧的躲在墙角，渴望你给她一个浪漫的拥抱。当你们邀请朋友到家里作客的时侯，她总会成为一个俐落又大方的女主人，给大家制造愉快的气氛。你不要太限制她的自由，当然她也不会过分的限制你。不要在她兴致冲冲告诉你她的新计划时，表现得漠不关心。她可能今天满脸甜蜜的告诉你，她觉得自己是全世界最幸褔的小女人，明天又忧伤的告诉你，她很担心你们之间爱的感觉已经不再了。这时侯，你需要的是一点幽默感。你不妨跟她说：「真的吗？那真是太糟糕了，妳是不是能给我一个机会，让我再追你一次呢？」俏皮而机智的言语，是永远讨双子座女子喜欢的，她本身就是一个极具表达爱情技巧的精灵，若是碰上了一块木头，岂不是太扫兴了吗？
　　
请你记得，时时牵牢她的手，随着她变化的节奏，你会发现，生活就是一个万花筒，五彩缤纷，刺激有趣。

2010-11-05T20:49:00.001+08:00

2010-09-15T12:46:00.000+08:00

越来越觉得我的facebook已经不是我可以说出我感想的地方…很无奈…小小事情可以给人大做文章，陷你入不堪的后果…不开心…还好我有这里…只有我的好友们会偶尔看看…人实在是太危险的动物，很恐怖，尤其是前后不一的人，要提防！

2010-09-09T23:33:00.000+08:00

Somehow I wish that I could further my studies..... I wish to study actually.. But reasons reasons and reasons happened dat I couldn't do So.. Dont ask me why, I dunno how to answer... What I could say is, everything happen, happened for reasons..

Realised my facebook is too open.. Too many unknown ppl around.. My dear blog is the only place I can tell wut is in my mind.. Knowing ken is the one dat will alwiz support my unknown bloggie.. Thanks.. Lol..

Now i'm back to sales world again.. Means dat i'm back to suffer from depress and stress again.. Not happy.. Moody.. Emotional.. :(

Today I've done a presentation.. But I couldn't close it.. Wondering is dat my skills got problems? But I noe myself did pretty well..? I'm not happy at all.. Everything is not as easy as I think.. And wondering actually is dat the right decision to get back to the sales world..

I dunno dat i'm ready anot.. I dunno dat have I prepared? I just feel not good when I fail to do the things I suppose to..

I just dont want to alwiz原地踏步.. The reasons why I choose to start from beginning again is I want to improve myself and keep moving forward.. I dont want to just stay in the safety zone and do nothing different.. But what can I do.. Really wish to improve myself and gain more knowledge..

Depress.. Today din get to workout.. Stress is still in me,. Must go attend yoga classes more.. Mind and body relax.. Needed it So badly..

Challenge.. Challenges.. Challengesss..

Wish I could go thru..

I can do it..!

Wish me luck..

Body combat class.! =)

2010-09-08T20:44:00.000+08:00

Yes! I love combat class..

After all those stupid problems that make me So angry., I decided to join jason k's combat class..

I fight.. I kick .. I punch.. I scream.. After all those kick boxing, muay thai, taekwondo..Released all my anger and stress..

Feel So much better now..

I love body combat class.! =)

2010-09-08T16:53:00.000+08:00

Today my mood already not good.. Den now I'M ANGRY TO THE MAX..!

Dunno how those ppl work one..! Not efficient at all.!

Thought wanna do reason parking at my new working place.. Due to daily parking fees is Freaking expensive! Summore reason parking is not cheap at all.. Wanna give business to them also need to 受他们气! Purposely went to their stupid office to do the paper work.. Den when I arrived there, say need my company offer letter.. Den I brought my employment contract to them.. But then give excuses dunno the person in charge is working or not.. Den call call call.. So called person in charge is in holidays.. Back to home town.. Fine.. Den, only come back ends of the month.. Another person cannot do.. This person need to find another, another find another.. Den need another official letter from company.. He cant do anything.. Just keep giving those Freaking excuses.. Nonsense! Besides than the person in charge, others cannot do meh! No replacement meh?! If the person in charge forever never come back, work no need to do la? If the person die, the company need to close down la.?! Wut nonsense is that.. I'm paying for rm30++ per day leh.. Before they come back from Freaking holidays, I still need to pay So expensive and the pass process still need time to do.. Forever never ending cannot do work!

Not only that side, my company side also.. I just need a employee letter.. But this ask me to find that, that ask me to find that,. Tis say call who who who.. Den who who who says need to ask who who who to send email to who who who.. Who who who says not free and not their job and tis and that.!

I'm enough for all those nonsense EXCUSES.! I'm Angry! I'm on fire..! Grrr! It has been long time I never get angry.. But tis time really cant stand for all those stupid attitude..

I need to cool down! Ppl here are crazy.. I hate it..! Seriously I do!

Angry!

心情日记！

2010-09-04T10:15:00.000+08:00

今天心情蛮好的！好久没update my bloggie 了！

休息了一个月，从新上班的第二天，感觉很好！今天上班竟然一点都不塞车，平时上下班都需要用到至少一个小时，今天十五分钟就到达目的地了！红绿灯一直都是绿的，谢谢幸运之神的降临！=)

来到这新地方，虽然没之前的那么熟悉，但这给我很舒服的感觉…昨天第一天上班，但每个人都对我好好，出去吃东西都没丢下我…以前的工作地方是全男的，只有我是女的，而现在是全女的，真的很不一样！

这里的人都好好…每个人看到都会笑笑的…很peaceful的环境！我喜欢！慢慢的喜欢上这里了…

从新踏上我那高高细细根，三寸半高的高根鞋，虽然我比较喜欢我的nike sports shoe… XD

我又开始上班了！真希望会好好的！　

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2010-08-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

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2010-08-04T23:35:00.002+08:00

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2010-08-04T23:26:00.002+08:00

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2010-07-01T01:00:00.001+08:00

七月一号，凌晨十二点…

外面下着雨的天空，就好像我心情一样黑暗…

刚刚结束了六月的最后一天，心情崩溃了…我hit不到我的budget…只差三个…如果我再努力一点我就可以做到了…可是现在的我，没有如果…一切过了，也结束了…

感觉我好像一无所有…

我怀疑自己，我的能力就只有到此为止吗？

如果今天是我最后一天，那有多好…但如果是我最后一天，我一定会后悔，遗憾自己没有努力把东西做好…

好想找人说话，但才发现我没有对象可以倾诉…又一次，我的一无所有…

今天我学会对着人欢笑，是很开心的样子…但怎么一个人的时候会感觉如此失落？我想哭却哭不出来…原来，心在流泪…我的心很痛，很痛…

失落，失望，失败…
就好像失去一切，一无所有…

我喘不过气来了…

我很累…真的很累了…好想休息啊…

我不开心…我很伤心…很伤心…

sad..

2010-05-25T13:58:00.001+08:00

actually tot i'm the one dat wanna resign.. but in the end.. the one dat resigned is my manager, kallon.. very very sad actually..

from the day i become membership consultant.. i noe he has put a lotz of time, efforts, energy in training me.. actually without him, without me today..

i'm someone dat very emotional alwiz.. but he alwiz cheer me up and help me alotz in all my way doing sales..i really appreacite him alot.. i'm glad that when everytime i wanted to give up but he didnt give up me.. thanks for alwiz motivate me and bring me up wen i'm down. show me the light wen i've lost my way.. thankz alotz.

now he want to leave us already.. actually there's no word can express my sadness of his leaving.. he will be working with others fitness club..

i really wish that he will stay here together with us.. but i dont wish to stop him thru his way of success and happiness.. i wish him all the best over there..

truly appreacite u! will miss u alwiz =)

everyone here come and go.. but i'm still here.. haizz.. why leh? >.<

- with sad feeling me -
- waikuen -

2010-05-25T13:47:00.002+08:00

haha..i'm now at CC, typing my bloggie dat i didnt update for long time.. first time.. my colleague, jeffrey brought me here.. coz today no boss, very free.. lolz.. dont laugh at me la.. i really never been to CC before ma..

haizz.. wondering why i only post sad sad things in my blog ar? nothing happy happen in my life recently ar? >.<

oh yea.. got!

on 21st of may, i've my wonderful 21st bday celebration together with my beloved frenz, Joanne leong, siin yan and franciz.. thanks for the present and the early celebration coz i'm going on holidays for my birthday =)

but of coz, wanna wish my dear frenz, siin yan, happy 21st bdaY!!~ now u can went to casino officially.. lolz.. i noe u already been there on the first day of ur bday.. haha.. take me go along next time.. soon..! just 1 more week to go only.. =D

everyday working, really feel very tired.. but, today is the last working day for this month, i am going on leave for my bday.. i'm going to redang together with my colleague, pinky.. haha.. cant wait for that day.. at last i can rest and enjoy.. wanna get tanned like jeffrey dat just back from his holidays at phuket.. =D

21st birthday, HERE I COME..! =)

the first the serving internet in cyber cafe, me,
- waikuen-
=)

2010-05-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

前几天鼓起勇气走进老板室里跟老板说过我要辞职，昨天走进老板办公室里，终于把辞职信拿给我老板了…我双手拿着信给他，他也双手接起我的信，突然间有心跳加速的感觉，双眼看着他就这样把我的辞职信给撕了！丢进垃圾桶里！突然间看着他，天啊，这是怎么一回事？当场傻掉…

之前同事们一直都不相信，包括我自己也不相信…以为我玩玩罢了，想不到我真的敢敢丢信了…哈哈…

也许我原因说服不了我老板放人吧…也许是我工作表现？不知道…我真的真的很累了…精神和身体都很累…每天工作从早到晚…也许我得到的工钱不少…现在的我什么都不缺…要什么，喜欢些什么，我都有能力，有本事自己买…唯一缺的就是时间…每天想着如果我有多几小时睡觉，那该多好……

在这里工作，越来越找不到方向…没日没夜，每一天都一样…真的越来越不知道为了什么…值得吗？

有时真的很羡慕，我所有的朋友同学都还在读书学习…只有我在工作…但有时他们却看好我的生活，可以靠自己，从不愁吃穿…其实我们都你看我好，我看你好罢了…各有各的辛苦和困难…只是我们的时间用在不同的方面罢了……

除了迷惘，还是迷惘…

信是给了…也给撕了…老板撕了以后就这样笑笑的离开了…天啊，这是什么一回事？答案呢？？就这样结束？！？我留下？到底怎么了？意义又是什么？

我不明白……

HaizZ....
- the blur blur confused me -
-waikuen-

2010-04-26T17:29:00.000+08:00

Today actually very moody de.. Because my colleages all go out together and having their lunch together and lefted me behind alone due to someone need to stay in the club to do those presentation in case somebody walk in enquiry for membership.. So damn sad that moment.. Because I really hate lefted behind alone..

Den after they all come back.. I don bother them and don wanna talk with them including my boss.. Obviously they know i'm very unhappy because of that and of coz I merajuk by without saying a single word.. Angry and sad.!

Then after awhile.. Suddenly my boss say got something I need to do, to drop flyers.. Ask me to follow.. Den ok lo.. Boss ma.. Fine.. Follow lo..

Who knows, in the end, he brought me to mcD and bought me my favourite mcFlurry ice cream.. Haha.. That's wut I alwiz eat when i'm sad.. Haha.. Wut a suprise.. =)) he knows and remember that I alwiz need ice cream when i'm unhappy.. At last I smile back.. Haha.. I like the suprise and ice cream by u.. =)

Thanks.!

With the sweet smile me,
-waikuen-
=)

2010-04-21T22:16:00.002+08:00

long time din update my blog already..

so pity, like dead already my blog..

actually i alwiz wanna update, but just too busy and yea, too much things to share..so dunno start from where...

...

lame..

-waikuen-

2010-03-20T12:54:00.000+08:00

Back to the problem again..

To study? To continue working?

Last time really feel like going back to study.. But now.. Suddenly feel like don wanna let go wut i'm having right now.. Besides than no time, my works really give me everything I want.. Especially now my business, my sales is getting better.. I can work more easily den can get business already.. And in the end give me salary dat allow me to give my family more money, can go shopping without thinking budget.. Buy car, handphone, laptop, go holidays using own money without needing me to ask from parents.. Its not dat I money minded, but my works provide me with free workout, free uniform, Use company phone to call clients, no need me go out, under the sun or rain to get sales.. And work place So near to my house.. And I like working here as well, altot it will be very tired sometimes and u don have much time left for myself.. But no pain no gain.. Sure must give out something to get something..

But now my mummy and sister is talking back that issues.. Asking me back to study..

How how how?

Again.. HATE making decision.!
The confuse me..
-waikuen-

2010-03-19T14:12:00.000+08:00

以前终是开心地笑，伤心地哭…所有的喜怒哀乐都会摆在脸上，一点都不会掩饰自己的情绪…所有人都知道我的心情，而我也对他们说，这就是我…

但现在…不知何时开始，我终于学会，对人时，终是笑着的，但当自己一个人时，就把笑容收起来，一幅moody的样子…是好事？是坏事？也许我真的很累，累到已笑不出来…可是身为客户服务员，我一定要笑口常来，笑脸迎人…

好累…好累…好想休息…好想远离这里…去一个安静的海边度假……

这个地方，还可以待多久？还要待多久？

………

life of gemini gal~

2010-02-28T18:07:00.002+08:00

hmm.. it has been awhile dint update blog already. many things to share actually..but sometimes or alwiz busy with works..really no time to update my blog.. :(

today is 28th feb.. last day for this month.. Happy Birthday LOUIS.. may ur dreamz come true :)

february..a short month.. and chinese new year month.. nothing special actually.. coz i work at cheras, stay at cheras as well n cheras is my home town.. so holidays few days also stay home only.. nothing special.. kinda boring, but good time for me to rest.. this year din even gamble as wut usually chinese new year will do.

a little suprise is just at 12.00am, 14th feb.. i got a call from somebody.. wen i answer hello, den the first word dat i heard is, leanne, would u be my valentine..? haha.. in the end i just haha.. coz i thought he was playing.. den few days later he ask me back wuts my reaction after i hear the sentence..only i noe he is saying the real one, den still the same, i have no reaction.. and equal to, i din agree it..

sometimes just dont dare to tell them, actually, i really dont feels like wanna get into any relationship.. i am already exhausted n too tired after my day n night working schedule.. tired till i really no time n no feel to go for dating.. sorry.. not tis moment..

talk back bout works, haizz, too bad, this month i cant achieve my budget.. =( den come a new boy dat freaking ego n like look down at me.. sad sad sad :'( everything just like going wrong...

BUT, NVM..!! this month is over now! new beginning for March! i'll start again.. well, typical gemini gal, wont sad for too long geh.. hehe.. gambateh lo~

BETTER IN TIME..!

march will going back for training at damansara liao.. coz my manager feels dat i need some improvement for my performance.. den i need to get back to basic.. nvm.. i like going for training anyway.. haha.. it will be alotz of fun.. meeting new ppl.. haha..just one thing too bad, after morning training, evening must get back to office to do sales,.. sure will be tiring day.. >.< haizz..

hape everything will be better in march..! goodbye sad sad february.. welcome march! hehe.. 3 more month to go for 21st bday.. aiya, will get older again.. need to work hard hard now to earn money.. I WANT HOLIDAYSSSSS..!! hehe..!

must work harder! believe it is possible..! make it possible.. =)

-the gemini starz-
- waikuen-

2010-02-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

i need silence..

leave me alone..

and i dont need ur sorry..

2010-02-07T19:07:00.001+08:00

thx for de McFlurry ice cream,thx for sending it to my office for me,and run off before i could see u.. consider suprise or somehow like dat gua.. I alwiz need it wen i'm not happy.. It do brings some happiness for me, cheer me up.. Altot its not long lasting.. But i appreciate it.. Thx alot..

-The ice cream girl-
-waikuen-

2010-02-07T18:42:00.001+08:00

Today is in a terrible mood.. Leave me.. Pls do not disturb..

Today office is in fire.. Everyone is quarreling.. All also very mad and angry.. Office politic.. I just don like it.. Early in the morning.. When team meeting everyone is get scolded by manager.. Especially me coz cant get appointment for today.. For me never mind coz i'm really wrong.. But for others is just on fire.. Manager scold ppl, ppl scold him back.. Everyone in the room just like wanting others to die.. Putting fire and bad stab behind, which i hate the most.. I alwiz keep quiet coz i don wanna include myself in it..

I just don like to work under tis environment.. Cant everyone work happily in peace and like family? Wen everyone is quarreling, my tears just rolling down my cheek, i really don like the situation which everyone like tis.. Where's our team work? Aren't they alwiz say we work as a team, we fight as a team, we won as a team and altot we fail also fail together as a team.. Together we stand, together we fall? Where's the spirit once we won the best club all around the global, among all fitness first in world? Tat time not we share our happiness together, we work hard together?!?

Why? Why everyone changed so fast? Can u all stop quarreling? Can u all stop bitching around.? Can u all keep the tiny room tat we used to work together peace? When can u all stop back stab? Is tat bring any benefits to u all if keep bitching around all day? Please la.! If continue like tis, how we gonna work together under tis environment?!? Everyone also like no mood to work..

Can u all stop fighting? Please?

I don wanna listen to all those back stab.! I'm not happy listening to it'! We are a team ! We are together! U all understand anot?

Shhhhhh... I need peace and silence..

Leave me.. Don bitch in front of me.. I appreciate it..

Please do not disturb..

-the really need peace, me-
-waikuen-

:(

2010-02-05T20:40:00.001+08:00

wednesday off day went for shopping.. Haiz.. Within one hour spend about RM 400.. Within 2 day i bought 6 pair of shoes..

Haiz.. I really a big spender.. Continue like tis i'm really gonna broke soon..

Today just 5th of the month.. I take out RM 2000 from bank liao.. But tis month become a good girl la.. RM 1000 is for parent.. Never mind la.. Money gone still can earn.. Luckily tis month salary still can afford me to do so.. But haven go shopping yet for chinese new year! Haiz.. Never mind.. While i can give.. I will give. Ppl around me happy den i also happy lo.. :)

sharing is caring.. :)

my dear di di.. Don sad sad liao.. Cheer up ok.! Jie is here with u.! Hehe..

-Waikuen-

2010-02-05T20:40:00.000+08:00

2010-02-05T20:19:00.001+08:00

last off day i went back to a place dat i don wish to go.. Because over there has some memories of me dat i don wish to fresh back.. Somehow i understand dat from where i falls down.. From there i need to stand up..

Today at last i got time to send my phone to sony erisson store to repair.. :( need to reformat.. Meaning dat all my previous msg in there will lost.. And all my memories.. One of the reason i din repair it earlier coz really feel bad thinking dat all the msg in there gonna lost.. :( my memories.. My sweet msg.. Especially all my msg from.. So sad.. Maybe its fate.. Its pointless to keep all those msg while everything is gone and no longer have.. But i just wish to read all the msg first before i send to repair.. But now its all gone..

Why la.. Sure drop on floor too many times already.. Haiz.. All reality now.. Gone den gone.. No time for me and pointless to regret.. Its time to let go.. And as fate so..

:(
-waikuen-

2010-01-30T13:29:00.000+08:00

How come I feel so lost? Lack of energy and tired.. Is tis bcoz of my sickness dat haven fully recover or?

Have my sickness recovered? Yesterday fever come back and keep vomiting.. Feel so not well..
Wut happened to me? :(

2010-01-28T17:13:00.001+08:00

keep sweating n feel so dizzy now

sure bcoz of medicines dat i took just now..

>.<

- the dizzy me -
- waikuen-

2010-01-28T16:49:00.002+08:00

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2010-01-28T16:11:00.002+08:00

haizz.. sick liao.. at home now..

couldnt expect dat my body cannot affort to work to hard n lack of rest. tot myself very strong tim.. who know.. fall down liao..

yesterday half way work, feel not well..den go n c doctor.. only noe dat i have fever @.@ 40'c ..is this consider high?! kena injection.. >.< coz doctor say my body very hot n fever very high. need injection to reduse the temperature... wut to do? medicines again...

haizz.. now only i noe, i'm this weak..

- the sick cat @.@ -
- waikuen -

2010-01-26T19:25:00.000+08:00

心情沉闷，很没心情，很不开心…到底我怎么了？我可不可以不要再这样情绪化下去了？

要停止一切我现在所做的东西，一点也不容易…很难得决定了要去读书，但一切并不是我想象中的简单…到头来，还是要面对我最讨厌的，做选择…
十七岁毕业，我逃避了选择，不知道要选哪一科来继续我学院的课程，我进了form 6，因为至少选择没那么多…两年以后，我毕业了，有事因为不会选择在大学报读那一科，我放弃了报名…结果没有像我多数同学们一样在就读大学…听了姐姐帮我做的选择，我就糊里糊涂地去fitness first应征…在没有任何地期待时，跑了去度假，就在期间突然间收到联络电话说我被纳入了…就这样进了这公司做工…想不到，我这么没有毅力的人，行行走走，就酱就呆了一年…

但突然间想到就这样迷迷糊糊地就拖了四年…从十七岁到现在的二十一岁…如果我要读书的话，应该是时候了吧…逃避下去也不是办法…岁月不留人…再不读书就会老了啦…但一切一切都没想象中简单…

所有人都叫我去读书…而我也确有此想法…突然间令一个人就对我说，读书会浪费你时间，既然你现在赚到钱，为什么要回去读书，去浪费时间，浪费钱…毕业以后又要从头来过，而且别人未必会请你，工作经验比较重要！很多大学生都找不到工…一就是大学生认为公司开的价钱不是他们所辛苦读来的文凭所值得的，或公司认为请不起所说的大学生…

选择啊选择…为什么啊？

Appointment come already.. Gtg.!

-the confuse + moody me-
-waikuen-

2010-01-25T21:00:00.000+08:00

叶子掉下了，并不代表树不要它。大树爱惜叶子，也不代表叶子就永远不会掉下。叶子的离开，不管是风的追求，还是树的不曾挽留，都终会有离开的一天…

其实我真的很喜欢这里…
不然就不可能可以在这里呆一年了…可是人终要进步…一直往前走…
也许从一个已出来社会工作的人，倒回去读书，可以说是后退…但至少也是我学业上的一个前进…

小鸟在笼子了温暖舒服了一年，从不愁吃喝，主人的宠爱让它活得很开心自在…但飞出去笼子，应该也有它平时学不到，也看不了的东西…外面世界的精彩也有另一番风景…
虽然辛苦，但至少有它平时得不到的，自由……

小鸟要展翅高飞了！鸟儿们，欢迎它吧！

希望我不会后悔这决定吧！支持我吧！

P/s : 离开得了再说…哈哈…

-难得心情开朗的我-
- waikuen -
=)

2010-01-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

Today feel so happy and released.. Suddenly feels so excited thinking I'm going to study, perhaps.. Haha.. I love school life.. =)

And guess I have my decision.. Dat I hardly can make..

Thinking dat i'm gonna designing my own house.. Simple and nice one will be good.. =)

2010-01-25T12:22:00.000+08:00

Giving up doesnt means you are weak,sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go..

2010-01-24T20:39:00.000+08:00

Should I stay?

Should I leave?

. . . . . .

2010-01-24T20:38:00.000+08:00

Know u r tired.. Pls don let urself too tired till exhausted.. Take carEz .. Have a good rest..

2010-01-24T13:49:00.000+08:00

Just read ur blog..

Qing yi, thx for everything..
Thx for alwiz be with me..
Thx for alwiz support me..
Thx for everything..
And Sorry for making u sad or not happy..

Qing yi, i'll alwiz appreciate u.. U r the best =)

I noe between us No need to say anything.. Coz in silence, both of us talk by heart, understanding each other.. I noe u alwiz be by me, and I'll alwiz be by you.. Tats y I love to share all my happiness and sadness together with u..

I appreciate u as my best frenz.. <3

- Gemini starz gal-
- waikuen -

2010-01-22T21:36:00.000+08:00

是我做得不够好，还是我不够努力去做？close不到的 sales是我的错？当然是我的错…要不然就不会被叫进老板室内了…被老板讲了半小时多，眼泪差点就流下，还好没有…最上次也是好像酱被老板叫了进去，竟然在老板面前哭了一个小时…是我太软弱吗？怎么酱没用？还蛮没用吧…什么都做不成…想想还真的自己做得不好…一次又一次让老板失望…还真没用…想想我是不是真的适合在这里做…

昨天我很开心，真的很开心…因为昨天和一班朋友在一起…kah weng, ken ken, alex and mikey..谢谢你们把快乐带给我…我很珍惜一起度过，一起玩，一起笑，一起傻，一起拍照的每一刻…昨天真的很棒，说真的，很久没有酱笑过了…

现在…HaiZzZ...不想再提了…

好心情毁了…

- the moody me - waikuen -
　

心情日记~

2010-01-16T16:37:00.000+08:00

These days altot sometimes kinda moody, But still there's something interesting and happy happened.. Hehe..

These dayz I get to know a few new frenz dat very interesting and funny.. One of them is now my little brother named kah weng..Haha..

In my meaningless life here, kah weng brings alotz of happiness for me and help me to search back my life..Haha.. So recently I alwiz go yam cha with him, and his frenz and of coz with my dearie Qing yi and frenz.. We alwiz having a wonderful tea time together,at night after my works..

Yesterday, like usual.. WE go yam cha,with kah weng,ken ken,Qing yi and xiao teng.. Haha.. I'm driving, so call driving.. Coz yea, i'm stepping On the oil stepper, But kah weng is holding the sterling.. Scare till ken dat sitting behind till half dead.. I'm driving manual car summore.. Drivers dat passing by my car also look at me like so shock..Haha.. Naughty me and kah weng.. >.< we r driving together.. But Its very ok la.. No car On the road also.. And I fully confident with my brother, altot he have No licence yet.. Xp and of coz, we arrived destination safely.. Ken ken's heart almost drop.. XD

Drinking session.! Too bad.. My fav mango ice don have.. >.< each of us ordered our drink lo.. Wen ken's drink arrived, Haha.. WE saw a clear lipstick sign On the cup.! Oh man.. Summore he's drinking milk.. Den ken and kah weng busy taking pic for the evidence.. Den I tot ken will drink like dat lo~ But who knows, kah weng suddenly say out loud, calling the waiter, Hey, u come and c.. Why got lipstick de? Susu from perempuan ke? I tot we ordered susu lembu? Den complaint about it.. =.=! Za dao.. After busy taking pic only wanna complaint.. Say wanna post it up at web worr.. Haha.. So funny la them.. Enjoy the wonderful tea time together !

In my life of 20th.. I go thru alotz.. In brand new year of 2010, till now, the best part is getting kah weng as my brother.. Haha.. Really very cute guy he is.. XD But sometimes he is so naughty.! Coz he is staying so near to my house, so I will fetch him to work as he is working nearby also.. Biasalah.. I'm late again.. Wen i'm rushing to his house to fetch him, who knows he hiding beside my car in front of my house den suddenly say Hi.. Made me almost heart attack and scream till so loud.. Ever since I scream till like tis.. So embarrassed.. Beside that, alwiz kacao me with the sound effect from his phone.. So naughty.! Knowing him two weeks already half dead of get frighten by him, after month sure got heart attack.. >.< But thx him also la.. Bring a lot of happiness to my meaningless life as well.. XD

Haha.. In process searching back my life.. He said will help me to fine it back.! =) well, will wait and see..

<3,
- waikuen -

i'm back!

2010-01-06T23:09:00.003+08:00

pity my little blog, dead for quite some time..now its time to alive it back!

compared to last time..its has been more den half yar nvr update my bloggie liao.. >.<

just a little news to tell everyone, i'm still fine..haven die yet.. lolz!

time really flies..within a blink, i had graduated from f6 more den a year..from year 2008 till 2009 n now 2010..from 19 years old till 20 years old n coming to 21 years old..getting older n older.. >.<

5th january 2009..the first day i worked with Fitnesss first.. Till now, 5th january 2010.. i'm still here..is this a good news or bad news..kinda shock dat someone dat alwiz impatient like me can stay at this company for a year n i'm still here.. most of my frenz went for future studies, except me.. >.<>.<

in this whole year i have been working with fitness first.. i learned alots n passes thru alotz.. alotz of happiness.. alotz of sadness.. alotz of experience.. alotz of frenz.. outlook appearance also changed alotz.. lolz.. i started with receptionist n now i changed to membership consultant.. last time hair in black, now hair in gold.. but still, i'm alwiz the blur blur one.. haha.. i alwiz bang on the door n bang on the wall of my office.. till all my colleagues used to it.. u bang on door again ar?! biasalah..haha!

i'm happy wen i worked as receptionist coz all of us is like my family, we all love each other, my beloved jie jie- eleven, ezan, shereen, qing yi.. worked as membership consultant make me exhausted coz working really long hours..nice experience working as a salesperson.. i'm tired with the office politic actually.. i hate the back stab from them.. we all is a team but yet, all is stabbing each other from behind.. dont they feels tired? is that helps? for me, i just listen n say nothing.. freaking tired of working liao still wanna waste time n energy do others meaningless things, really dont understand them..

working as salesperson.. i have kinda amount of members.. i alwiz called them up or sms them to wish them happy birthday, happy new year, merry christmas, and if they is in club, i bought them a slice of cake..haha.. wen they happy, i also will happy.. i very good with all my members actually..sometimes thinking of resigning..but once i resign, like very irresponsible coz i signed them up, but in the end leave them.. >.<

seriously after i worked.. my life is all about fitness first.. really so LIFELESS.. i worked at FF, workout at FF, meet all ppl also in FF, know frenz also from FF, scandals also from FF.. sometimes really kinda sienz..

but sometimes i'm glad coz get to know alotz of nice frenz.. sometimes wen i sad, pretend manja den i can get some sweets sweets.. haha.. i like sweets sweets n ice cream.. haha.. oh ya..thinking of sweets sweets, someone owe a candys from taiwan, will get from the person wen i c that person..haha! i like mc flurry ice cream from mc D.. last time wen i sad, someone used to accompany me n buy me an ice cream..we used to meet up at the same mcD n chat there.. nice memories =) that moment has gone, but memories is alwiz in my mind.. thx anyway =)

another things dat make me happy of coz wen ppl achieved their results la..everyone joined us also have their own reason..some ready for competition, wanna train stamina , some wanna maintain a healthy lifestyle, mostly is to lose weight n re-shaping, and build up muscles.. i'm happy wen all my members told me happily wen they said that they achieved they results.. some told me their lose up 5-6kg in a month, some says their diabetis leval decrease, no need eat so many medicines n feels themselves light.. they are really happy working out in FF coz can achieve results, more happy n have friendly ppl like me ^^..lolz!

people happy den i'm happy lo~

hmm.. after all my works updates.. wanna noe more bout my personal life updates? curious dat i'm still single n available or taken.. this question not gonna answer u..discover it urself if wish to noe..haha.. one thing dat nvr change is i still very good with qing yi.. qing yi still alwiz be by me all this long.. haha.. she knows everything bout me.. thx qing yi =) but i hope she will nvr leave me after she together with her bf~ haha.. Qing Yi is in LOVE..!!~ haha!

hmm.. today updates till here la.. more update soon.. wanna know more latest one..better check my facebook actually.. http://www.facebook.com/wk0531

lots of love,
-waikuen-
07/01/2010
dat still in broken heart mood..

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2009-08-15T02:23:00.002+08:00

it has been really long time didnt update my bloggie..
haiz..life is busy..( not an excuse actually )

sometimes really got idea to post something up here..just dont wish my blog bcum like a dead fish..but soemhow, there's no enough time for me to do so..

miss those dayz dat i could update my blogger alwiz..sharing latest updates with all beloved frenz..but now..guess everyone same also..everyone blogger so quiet liao..

anyway..just telling u guys..tat passing by my bloggie, once awhile perhaps..latest update of me, u can check it thru facebook at this address..

http://www.facebook.com/wk0531

c ya~ byez!~

gemini galz is me!~

2009-07-08T01:08:00.002+08:00

双子座

双子孤傲是因为他们自信，双子善变是因为世界在改变，双子没有耐性是因为他们发现了不值得，双子冷漠是因为他们害怕被伤害，双子花心是因为他们没有找到真爱，双子不在乎是因为你没有看到他们的敏感。

　　　笑　

双子们的笑永远都是最单纯的，无论什么时候你都会看到一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人，却只把悲伤留给自己，你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在被人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪的时候，那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得的依靠，他会每时每刻的在乎你的一切，他们很敏感的，会跟着你的快乐而快乐，跟着你的忧愁而忧愁，跟着你的改变而改变，但在你面前他们从来都是快乐的。　　

　　爱

一提到双子的爱，一般人肯定都会说：双子座的人最花心。可是是真的是这样吗？双子和异性的关系好只是因为他们非同一般的亲和力，而双子的真心只有一个，当他找到的时候，他就会付出自己的一切让对方得到幸福，他要的不是他自己能和对方在一起，他要的是对方的幸福，和双子在一起会感到很随和，因为他会包容你的一切，你的一切优点和缺点，和双子在一起绝对不会觉得被锁住，你只要做自己就好，因为双子喜欢的就是真实的你，做作的人根本不会得到双子的心

　坚强　　

有人说双子很坚强，什么都不在乎，是阿，表面的双子确实很坚强，但是内心他们比任何人都脆弱，也许这也是风向星座的人的一个特性，决不会让别人看到自己脆弱的一面，因为他们都是一个有一双别人看不见翅膀的天使，天生就会给别人带来快乐，双子们的眼泪是透明的，别人看不见，可是自己却能看得很清楚这样的透明的泪给自己开来双倍的痛　

　　人际　　　　

双子们的人缘很好，因为他们懂得你什么时候需要什么样的帮助，而且双子们会根据不同的人有不同的交往方式，双子很容易相信别人，所以经常会被欺骗，可是在欺骗后他们仍然会轻轻的笑笑然后说：没关系的，他骗我肯定会有原因。双子从来不会知道后悔是什么，因为他们时时刻刻都在为别人想，总会设身处地，可是这样别人根本就不知道，就是因为他帮助别人太多了，所以在他需要帮助的时候却总是孤立无援，然后继续的笑着，笑着找到一个角落，留下那颗透明的泪。

　朋友

当双子的朋友真的很幸福哦！因为当你遇到什么困难时，他会比你更着急，甚至会失去自己宝贵的东西也会帮助你，他会带给你快乐帮你分担忧愁，可是你却看不到他的孤独和无助，当双子看到你不高兴的时候，无论这时他有多么的郁闷，他也会立刻露出最真实的笑容来帮助你。

执着

说双子善变，那只是片面之词，对于双子真正喜欢的东西，它是会执着的让人害怕的，就是因为内心太像小孩子太单纯，所以对于他们真正喜欢的东西，他们是根本就不知道放弃是什么的，除非是他们自己发现这个东西不值得，否则他们是绝对不会放弃的，只要是他们肯定的，他们就会有超出别人很多的坚持和执著。

自尊

双子的自尊很重要，对于他们最重要的恐怕就是这个了，他们懂得原谅，无数次的去试着原谅，就算别人让自己千疮百孔，他们也会无条件的有自己的宽容，有自己的原则和原谅，就是因为他们的自尊，他们的自尊心让他们相信这个世界永远都是最美的，因为他们的自尊不允许自己放弃这个世界。　

只要他认为这件东西是自己可以割舍的，他绝对会无条件的退出，去成全别人，对于欺骗过他们的恋人，他会选择原谅，但绝对不会再和他们在一起，因为他懂得这样不值得。双子座的人真的很可爱，真的很需要人的保护和安慰，他们不会放弃世界，却会放弃自己，去成全别人，他们懂得原谅和理解，无论这一秒他有多讨厌一个人，下一秒看到那个人脆弱的一面，他还是会去无条件地帮助他，真的很傻吧？但是傻的好可爱，好让人心疼，痛过以后，他们依然会笑着面对以后未知的路，继续原谅，继续理解，继续快乐，继续的傻着，改变双子真的很难吧？因为他们的心都是金刚石作的，但不是说他们无情，他们的执着只是针对自己的，那么孤傲的一个人，也只是针对自己，因为他们不知道怎么表达自己的内心，所以他们选择了沉默。

about me..gemini galz is me ^^

2009-07-08T00:51:00.000+08:00

双子座(Gemini)

有很多的朋友，可是'看起来朋友很多，可是知心的没有几个'这句话很深刻的形容了双子。双子很能说话，他跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会聊一些很严肃的话题。双子可以跟你聊很多东西，可是注意了，他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事。随便他跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。比如，今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。关于自己的事，他几乎是不说的，就算是说，也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的了解双子，他会很自然的把话题给扯开。对于自信的双子来说，他又同时很没有安全感，这是双子特有的矛盾。他喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露。对于双子来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。这样就失去了一定的优势。当双子感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或者一个人郁闷着。双子也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切，也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩。但他不会让别人发现的，他怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西. 一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，上面说了，这只是一种习惯了，可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。双子是被公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于双子的花心，真的不想再说些什么了。解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了。可是说起双子，就不得不提感情，双子这一生，似乎必须被感情牵伴，跟爱情纠缠一世。很多人说双子并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话：双子最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。我想用如来若去说的一句话给双子的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂的。至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起。其实双子是最平和的星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免。双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，那么双子就在吵完的那一刻就把这件事给忘了；要双子真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受，这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉，甚至会不给你留面子地离开。这时你一辈子也别想再和他和好了，就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友，但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的'朋友'关系其实，很大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，之所以给人留下花心的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，不是双子铁石心肠，而是双子个性里面天生有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入，可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，一定能让你获得很多快乐。每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事，双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座，他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困，动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，等到夜深人静的时候，双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，但是，一旦天亮了，要出去见人了，双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，这就是双子，拥有双重性格的双子，一个在世人面前乐天，快乐，在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切，有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。假如双子爱上了一个不爱自己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，我们很会伪装，很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解！

母亲一生的八个谎话. . .

2009-05-27T23:05:00.001+08:00

儿时，小男孩家很穷，吃饭时，饭常常不够吃，母亲就把自己碗里的饭分给孩子吃。母亲说，孩子们，快吃吧，我不饿！――母亲撒的第一个..

男孩长身体的时候，勤劳的母亲常用周日休息时间去县郊农村河沟里捞些鱼来给孩子们补钙。鱼很好吃，鱼汤也很鲜。孩子们吃鱼的时候，母亲就在一旁啃鱼骨头，用舌头舔鱼骨头上的肉渍。男孩心疼，就把自己碗里的鱼夹到母亲碗里，请母亲吃鱼。母亲不吃，母亲又用筷子把鱼夹回男孩的碗里。母亲说，孩子，快吃吧，我不爱吃鱼！――母亲撒的第二个谎。

上初中了，为了缴够男孩和哥姐的学费，当缝纫工的母亲就去居委会领些火柴盒拿回家来，晚上糊了挣点分分钱补点家用。有个冬天，男孩半夜醒来，看到母亲还躬着身子在油灯下糊火柴盒。男孩说，母亲，睡了吧，明早您还要上班呢。母亲笑笑，说，孩子，快睡吧，我不困！――母亲撒的第三个谎

高考那年，母亲请了假天天站在考点门口为参加高考的男孩助阵。时逢盛夏，烈日当头，固执的母亲在烈日下一站就是几个小时。考试结束的铃声响了，母亲迎上去递过一杯用罐头瓶泡好的浓茶叮嘱孩子喝了，茶亦浓，情更浓。望着母亲干裂的嘴唇和满头的汗珠，男孩将手中的罐头瓶反递过去请母亲喝。母亲说，孩子，快喝吧，我不渴！――母亲撒的第四个谎。

父亲病逝之后，母亲又当爹又当娘，靠着自己在缝纫社里那点微薄收入含辛茹苦拉扯着几个孩子，供他们念书，日子过得苦不堪言。胡同路口电线杆下修表的李叔叔知道后，大事小事就找岔过来打个帮手，搬搬煤，挑挑水，送些钱粮来帮补男孩的家里。人非草木，孰能无情。左邻右舍对此看在眼里，记在心里，都劝母亲再嫁，何必苦了自己。然而母亲多年来却守身如玉，始终不嫁，别人再劝，母亲也断然不听，母亲说，我不爱！――母亲撒的第五个谎

男孩和她的哥姐大学毕业参加工作后，下了岗的母亲就在附近农贸市场摆了个小摊维持生活。身在外地工作的孩子们知道后就常常寄钱回来补贴母亲，母亲坚决不要，并将钱退了回去。母亲说，我有钱！――母亲撒的第六个谎

男孩留校任教两年，后又考取了美国一所名牌大学的博士生，毕业后留在美国一家科研机构工作，待遇相当丰厚，条件好了，身在异国的男孩想把母亲接来享享清福却被老人回绝了。母亲说，我不习惯！――母亲撒的第七个谎晚年，母亲患了胃癌，住进了医院，远在大西洋彼岸的男孩乘飞机赶回来时，术后的母亲已是奄奄一息了。母亲老了，望着被病魔折磨得死去活来的母亲，男孩悲痛欲绝，潸然泪下。母亲却说，孩子，别哭，我不疼。――母亲撒的第八个谎不论你多富有,不管你官多大,到什么时候也离不开咱的妈....愿天下父母平安度春秋....... 珍惜母亲的每一个谎言,好好的对待父母,很多东西,失去后才得来的珍贵代价太大.所以一定要好好的爱我们的父母~

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊? 如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼? 是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開? 是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

在此祝福全天下父母平安度春秋...

The Mayonnaise Jar ..

2009-05-25T01:55:00.000+08:00

The Mayonnaise Jar

When things in your life seem, Almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class

And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again
If the jar was full... They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand

And poured it into the jar.. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table
And poured the entire contents Into the jar, effectively
Filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life..
The golf balls are the important things - God, family,
children, health, friends, and favorite passions –

Things that if everything else was lost

And only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --
The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life..

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
Important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things That are critical to your happiness.
Playwith your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand
And inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Please share this with other "Golf Balls"

我爱上了…拥抱

2009-05-08T17:14:00.001+08:00

最近看到许多文章都有关于拥抱，都很有意思…

其实，拥抱的感觉很好…当你不开心时，如果有人在这时候给你一个拥抱，那有多么的温馨啊…不需任何言语，深深得就可以很感动，无声的鼓励和支持，深深地体会和感觉，沉醉在被人拥抱和爱护的感觉，幸福的气息都赶走那讨人厌的伤心，伤感的气氛…

最近都沉醉在拥抱的感觉，好希望那幸福的光阴永远都不会完…只可惜，人终需要清醒过来…回复那残酷的现实…

只知道，回忆永远都是最好的…因为“它”已留在心中…

我，真的真的好喜欢拥抱的感觉…

我爱上了，拥抱！

I'm back..

2009-05-04T07:49:00.000+08:00

I'm back.. To morning shift again.. HaizZz.. So sleepy.. After three month continuous working afternoon shift, cant really wake up early in the morning.. As wut i expected, i really get sick liao.. Every time woke up early in de morning, as usual, i sure will get cold.. Especially under the air conditional condition..

Think back the first month i work morning shift for the whole month, n how much i don wish to end the morning shift, till now, the totally different.. Ah.! After three month afternoon shift,dat allow me to sleep very late, and of coz wake up very late... My schedule ah.! Why like tis de.. I don want morning shift ah.. I wanna sleep.. Haha..

Ah chew.! The most terrible one.. Get cold.! Sleepy plus sick.! N work alone.! Pity me...

HaizZz..tats all from me for today.. The first starting day of my morning shift.. To be continue..

-the lonely sick gal-
- y kuen -

只想愛你

2009-05-03T18:35:00.004+08:00

我終於還是說了一句我愛你

還記得那個微涼夜裡天空正飄著小雨心跳的聲音

像舞動奇蹟

你看著我說千萬不要愛上你

因為你只會讓我傷心別傻了快點喊停

你那麼冷靜忽遠又忽近

我知道我對你來說也許太年輕

我想我猜我問我終於了解

原來為愛流的眼淚

也是種甜蜜滋味

只想愛你

當我和你走在一起就已經決定

不看不聽不問也不會放棄是你讓我了解自己

可以為愛那麼堅定

只想愛你

好想每天睜開眼睛就能看到你

我知道我偶爾有一點任性不管你做任何決定

究竟愛我還是逃避

Sorry 我還是不會放棄愛你

只想愛你 (zhi xiang ai ni) - RAiNiE YANG

counting, counting, counting...!!

2009-05-03T03:50:00.002+08:00

27 dayz to go..!!~

tiLL 31st of mAy 2009.. ^^

i want suprise..i want surprise..i want suprRise..!!!

its mine,its mine birthday..

haha..n of coz not forgotten miss Lee SiiN YaN also..

..12nd of may..

we are MAY baby.!!!~

lets scream..!!

let celebrate..!

hurray..!!~

=_=!

just ignore me..

i'm crazy..

YES, i am..!

lolz..

just count..

8 dayz to go till siin yan bday..

atleast..nearer than mine..

hohoho..!!

about me, m3 n mE..

2009-05-03T03:16:00.004+08:00

before i change my look..my hair is long n black..

taking pic with my colleagues after work..louis,patrick n ezan..

still the old look..with valentine theme..so in pink..asking, will u be my valentine?! lolz..

before change to pink..after workout..haha..

one of the membership consultant in fitness first, raymond..the first day i changed my look..with brown + gold hair.. nobody recognize me after changed to this look..haha..

still the same..the hot spot..neway karaoke..with my colleague..eleven.. =)

oooppps!!! make sure u R 18++..hehe..

back to qing yi..u r not forgotten.. dont worry.. ^^

waikuen with raymond..after mcD at leisure mall..

as usual..neway..haha..with ezan..

muackzzz..!~

play until hair also messy liao.. =_=! quottro is the next destination..! lets go clubbing babe..!! ooops..under age?!?

back to work...sienzzzZ...curi tulang-ing in the office..hehe..

and, of coz, absolutely open for registration now
.. lolz..!

-waikuen-

03:50am

signing off...

又一次…

2009-04-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

原本以为已经戒了做那些傻事，结果…又再一次…手上又出现了另一条疤痕…好讨厌，又走回这旧路的自己…

将近的二十岁生日…

2009-04-10T20:57:00.001+08:00

原本之前很不希望自己的「一字头」,那就是十九岁的生活, end so fast, 至少可以享受多一下下的年轻气息，哈！这因为感觉上二十岁将是人生的转折点，需要做重要的决定，等等，等等。当然，最重要的原因，是因为感觉自己老了…哈…

不希望步入二字关的自己，突然间想法有了很大的转变…不再讨厌自己快要二十岁…事出必有因，这些日子里，发生了一些事情，当然，是不开心的事…

才知道年龄的差别有这么的重要…
那时的我，才知道，年轻并不是一件好事…

第一次，有开始讨厌自己，只有那区区的，二十岁…

my beloved manager, SheReeN's last day..

2009-03-23T18:46:00.008+08:00

18th march 2009

the last day of my manager, shereen at fitness first..therefore we r having a farewell party for her at Neway there..

my favourite pic..the most beloved family pic.. =)

tat day was a memoriable day..and we're having very great time together with her..and we play till 4am++..enjoyed the moment together.. we really love and miss her alotz..everyone said we dont wanna cry on tat day..but yet, at last we all are crying like hell.. really dont wish her to leave us.. but yet..

day before this..she have a talk with me..dunno why..wen i saw her n wen she start talking with me..i looking over her eyes..n my tears rolled down..n cried non stop on tat time..altot the time i worked there is not long..but i really can feel..all of us is working as a team, a warm family either..she really treated us very good..even she alwiz get scolded by club general manager, due to us, making alots of mistakes or wutsoever..she rarely will scold us back.she's different with others manager..not showing off..we love her n she love us alots..

tat dat wen i very sad n crying so badly..thank you for tat person to accompany me n comfort me..very warm hug u have..haha..

to shereen..altot you'll never visit my blog..but just wish to tell u..all the very best for ur future undertaking..thankz for loving us this long..n of coz..we all, Front Of House, love u too..last time, now n ever.. we really do miss u alotz.. n yet..take carez alwiz..!!!

with love,

-waikuen-

patrick's bday party at Neway~

2009-03-21T00:04:00.002+08:00

p/s : altot my face look red..n i admit i accidently drink some,wine?! i think.. i did feel a little of dizzy..but..i didnt drunk.!! lolz.~

after work time..12am++ till 5am..!!~ wow.. fun..haha..

thankz..

2009-02-16T13:32:00.001+08:00

happy biRthdaY, FrancKen..!!~

2009-02-10T21:35:00.004+08:00

-10th february 2009-

today is a special day..
coz it's Francken big day.. ^^

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY..!!!~

got my day off today..

but unfortunately..

he's not free to go out..

he's having his exams next week..

starving from stress..

pity him.. =(

somehow..

of coz..

i called him to wish him happy birthday..

gosh..

i miss him so so so much..

i have a very very best time chatting with him..

very happy..^^

since i've long time din see him n talk with him either..

he even played a song for me in the phone..

the melody from his piano, so nice..n touched..

love it so much.. =)

just wish to c him soon..

really miss him alotz..

anyway..

wish u have a happy birthday..

n may ur wonderful dreamz come true..!

wishing u all of life best today n alwiz..^^

love u the most..

for the previous time,now,alwiz n ever..

thx for exist in my life.. =)

with love,

-waikuen-

some words to u..

2009-02-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

to chan qing yi..

i noe u r reading my blog..
there's some word i wanna say to u..

first of all..
really sorry for my childish attitude all the time..
sorry for annoyed u..
sorry coz i alwiz get angry easily..
but u never hate me or angry me..
it make me feel more guilty..
everytime after like i 'scolded' u..
but another day u sure din angry me n smile n talk with me..
like nothing happened at all..
it make me really touched..
n realised how terrible i am..
sorry..

n..
most important..
just go ahead..
follow ur dreamz..
ur career as well..
no matter how please i am hoping u r not leaving..
but..
if i still blocking u..
for seaching ur happiness n career..
i really dont have the qualification to be called as ur frenz..
a frenz shouldnt stop u for looking for ur hapiness..
n keep asking u to stay,as i noe how much u dont like to stay there..

i still wanna be ur frenz..
so..i wont stop u for doing any decision dat will make urself happy...
just go ahead..
i will support u morally n mentally..

to tell u..
the way of bcuming a personal trainer/ fitness instructor is not easy..
n can be said very very tough..
u must add oil..!
remember..no matter how hard ur life is..
no matter how stress u r in ur coming day..
no matter u r sad or happy..
i'll alwiz here..
just look for me ba..!
coz tat's wut a frenz for..
give u punch me also nvm la..
haha..

so lo..
altot i dont believe in forever frenz..
but hopefully..
v can be best frenz..reaching for forever..
haha..

yea..tat's all..

c ya..

=)

ur truly,
the naughty me,
-waikuen-
^^

updates..

2009-02-05T22:06:00.003+08:00

hmm..long time din update my blog already.. T.T

its 5th feb already..means..its already been a month since i start working..haha..
time flies..din realise it tim..
n of coz..salary coming out soon..!! muahaha..
i just cant wait to go shopping.. ^^

today my manager asked me whether i wanna change bcum a permanent worker anot..since i'm a part timer over there..if i wanna change..she will send me to training..haizz..decision again..i really dunno..should i continue?????

guess wut let me think so long..??
its bcoz of tat chan qing yi lo..
she dont wanna continue working as front of house already..
she want to bcum fitness instructor liao..
n LEAVE ME ALONE..!!!!
haiz..sad la...
chan qing yi..! i noe u got read my blog..
harr?!?! how dare u treat me like this????
sad ah..!!!
blek..! Xp

actually i kinda happy working over there..
ppl over there quite nice..^^
n playful..like me..^^ haha..
think back dat day..my manager suddenly asked me whether i am happy anot working there?
dunno why..tat time really dunno how to answer her..
haha..

ah.!! actually very tired now..
just back from work..
n disappointed..
coz my workout plan canceled..
i went shopping with qing yi liao..
haiz..
too bad..

n now..
the most important thing to do..
is to prepare something really special for my beloved brother, francken bday..
haiz..really no idea wut to give him..n do for him..
10th of February summore..
no time..!!!

haha..
think back dat day i told my colleague dat i purposely working just to buy present for francken..
they really believe it..
swt..
but it kinda true also..
one of the point..
haha..

dunno wut to update liao..
tired..

biggest wish now..
is can do something special for francken..
n..
dont wish qing yi to leave me..
haiz..
but i guess also no hope de la..
but if she can do something dat she like n make her happy..
den go ahead..
just all the best ba..

..haha.. got to go..
byez..
=)

-waikuen-

the answer..

2009-02-01T21:58:00.002+08:00

kinda busy this recently..
so long time din update blog already..
but guess my blog not popular also..
no one will view it..haha..

just passing by to drop down the answer for tat question..

the answer is 22..

the reason..

" one sweet with one wrapper cost RM1.00..
RM 15.00 can get 15 sweets..
den tat 15 sweet wrappers can be change with 5 more sweets..
among the 5 sweet wrappers, 3 can change 1 more sweet..
tat 1 more sweet + the lefted 2 more sweet wrappers can get 1 more sweet.. "

15+5+1+1 = 22

tats the answer..
discover it out..

bye^^

tats all from me today..
tired..just back from work..

from,
the tired me,
waikuen..

let gueSs...

2009-01-21T21:25:00.003+08:00

here is a question asked by one of my frenz.. ^^

let guess..see whether u all can get the right answer anot..

drop me a comment to tell me the answer..haha..

it sounds....

" every sweet will got it wrapper..
n of coz..one sweet only got one sweet wrapper right..
one sweet cost for RM 1.00..
n..every three sweet wrapper can be change to get one sweet..
now u R given RM 15.00..
how many sweet tat u can get in the end?!? "

haha..tell me the answer as soon as possible..

will tell the right answer in my next post..

c ya..hehe..

p/s: answer with explanation..why u guess tat much of sweet..^^

my mood diary..

2009-01-19T21:18:00.003+08:00

19 Jan 2009

haiz...
i'm getting more n more depress n confused..
i dunno wut should i do...

today after work..tot wanna workout..after changing..
haiz..no mood to workout liao..
run like hell..also cant make the sadness in my heart away..

ended up..go back to the changing room..
hugging my bag..
think back the incident tat make me so sad..
my tears started to roll down... :'(

i squat down in front of my locker..
n keep crying..
while there's so many ppl passing by...
guess everyone is thinking..wut happened to this gal...

i am really sad..
thinking why am i crying..
besides than cry..wut else i can do..?!

suddenly..my blade dropped out from my bag..
it makes me think back..my last time..dat i used to do so..
i cut my wrist whenever i'm sad..
in my mind..how much i hope dat my sadness will go away as my wrist bleeding with all the blood roll down...

but.. this time i din do so..
dunno wut makes me stop doing this..
maybe think back my childishness for doing so..
coz..its doesn't help..if i do so..
but.i really dunno..how long i can hold for not doing this...

i hate myself for being so emotional..!
i hate myself for dunno how to control my emotion..
i hate myself for being so useless..
i hate myself for being so terrible..
i hate to noe dat i'm nothing, compared with others....

wut should i do?!

wut can i do?!?

i really cant hold anymore..
run toward the running machine n speed up n try to run,run n run..
but its still no help..
stopped the machine..
run out of fitness first..
to cool myself down..

after awhile..
i back to FF..
to bath..
wishing to wash away my sadness..
wash away the pain of my heart..
i still remember how hot the water i put..
my skin n face was so red..n pain actually..
but..my sadness still with me...

I'm sad..!!
I'm depress..!!
I'm confused..!!
I'm dying.............

i need help.....

-waikuen-

my mood diary..

2009-01-18T20:16:00.003+08:00

another working day..

haiz..sunday..sometimes really very lazy to wake up early in de morning to go to work..but somehow..have to..

since de day i started to work..i'm working in morning shift..
somehow..my morning shift gonna end SOON..!
haiz..just another two more days to go for my morning shift for January..

tell the truth..
altot its really lazy to wake up in de morning..
especially me..hv to wake up at 4am every morning to get ready..
haiz..wut to do?! due to i alwiz do things very slow..so hv to wake up earlier to do preparation lo..

BUT..!
i do love my morning shift..
u noe why?!
coz..
....
...
i'll the de FIRST one dat greet them GOOD MORNING for them dat come into fitness first..
to those members..dat waiting for us to open..
to the personal trainers n fitness instructor..dat hv to come early in de morning to train ppl..
to those cleaner kakak n abang..
haha..

every morning is a new beginning..
therefore..in de morning..everyone is with nice nice mood..
wen i greet them good morning..they will greet me back or give me a smile..
haha..

its really too good to be de first one dat greet he or she..
tat's why i like my morning shift.. =)

aww..but somehow..my afternoon shift gonna start soon lo..
hv to work till 11.30++pm..
@.@

but i guess its another experience dat i can gain..
let me feel the different..
n learn more things..^^

sadly say bye to my morning shift..
afternoon shift..!!
HERE I COME..!!~

p/s..tell u all something..tat i found out really funny this few day..
as u all known..to go into the gym area..
firstly they have to swap their fitness first membership card at the bar there b4 they can go in..
BUT..
there's "some" members.......
take out..
those card such as IC..credit card..bonuslink card etc..to swap..
n den asking..why cant i go in?! the machine something wrong or bla bla bla....
but actually.....
muahahaha..!!~
laugh till i stomach cramps..!!
take IC,bonuslink card,credit card to swap..hoping to get in?!?
tat's how "funny" some members are..
swt swt swt.. =.=!

18 jan 2009
20.38pm

-waikuen-

about..

2009-01-17T21:16:00.003+08:00

17 jan 2009

today is de annual dinner of my company,fitness first..
therefore v closed at 5pm..
everyone dressed nicely to attend the dinner..
but too bad..i cant attend it..i din get the invitation..due to i'm a new comer n part timer.. X(
all staff for fitness first in whole Malaysia is going to attend this annual dinner..
wah..can think how grand the ceremony is...

my life..consider ok this recently..
not much sad thing..still dat cheerful gal i am..

but sometimes..i feel bad..
wondering in working environment..everyone must fighting each others n back stab behind?!
of coz i'm NOT one of them..
just wondering..
in my department, there's a new galz called nurul..all the seniors dont really like her..but i'm fine with her, with everyone thou..=)
today..wen my senior Patrick asked me where the nurul is..just a simple answer from me..reading newspaper n drinking coffee..(actually dat time not much customer..so dat can break awhile)..
but after dat..dat i cant expect..wen another senior come..the one dat with experience..patrick told her bout tat..den..straight away she go n call my manager about tat..
haiz..suddenly feel like..wut is this life is?!
i really wish tat we really can work as family..harmonies with no back stab..but yet..
awwwh..! i'm bad..i shouldnt say anything..i should just say i dunno..i hate be one of the backstabber dat i din mean it.. haizzzz...

ok..another way..my beloved frenz..qing yi..
at last she changed..
she is falling with the guy..
so interested in him n keep asking things bout him..
den i'm the one dat go n ask the guy everything bout him..
sigh..! how if he misunderstood dat i'm the one dat love him?!
haha..
first time i realised she got such reaction..talking with guy..n keep noticing him..
dunno y..dat day..i suddenly said.." qing yi..suddenly i feel like i dunno u? "
awww..why am i saying this?!?

but..wen i'm in bad mood..
luckily got qing yi accompany me do gym..
to release out my stress n depress..
yesterday i feel like kinda unhappy..
den after work i go n change to sport attire..workout..!!
i pulled qing yi to the running machine n run like hell..
den keep doing exercise like cycling..n many many more..
qing yi also say i really look indifferent tat day..y seems like so angry..?!
after awhile..qing yi say wanna rest awhile..
till den only she tell me..
altot u look different today n run like this..very tiring accompany u to do so..
but i more 'rela' u do gym like this rather than cut ur hand again..
i'm like...
oh yea..suddenly feel like..wut a nice frenz u are..haha..
thx alotz n sorry..coz today u tell me ur leg very pain coz yesterday..haha..
really sorry..

haiz..too many things happened in this one weeks++ time i started to work..

its another stage of my life..
written down another beautiful page in the diary of my life..
altot sad things happens..but if sad things never occur, how am i gonna noe the feeling of happiness?!

" The idea that happiness could have a share in beauty would be too much of a good thing."

ur truly,
-waikuen-

confused..

2009-01-17T21:12:00.000+08:00

wut should i do..?!?!

Fahrenheit - 留下來 (Liu Xia Lai)

2009-01-14T14:05:00.000+08:00

updates..

2009-01-14T12:46:00.003+08:00

ha ha ha.. its Wednesday again.. means.. its my off day again..haha..
so..its time to update my bloggie..

haizz..dunno wut to say tim..

as i have said..i'm working recently..everyday..
so my daily routine is just work, work n work..
not dat boring..kinda busy..so so..haha..

so wut i can update here still about my work..
can just left my blog if bored to hear this from me..haha..

well..I'm working at fitness first..a gym centre..of coz..there's many leng zai n leng lui over there..
and all the personal trainer/fitness instructor body is so nice n fit..haha..

there's a very handsome + young de fitness instructor called louis..damn handsome n charming..haha..not too short, not too tall (178cm) + perfectly fit..every time wen i work morning shift..can saw him work out..do exercise..n can c him teach classes..( there's many classes in FF such as body combat,body pump,yoga,ballroom dancing,kickboxing n many many more)..
guess wut..he's one of the most popular fitness instructor dat can achieve the highest sales..muahaha..those auntie love him alotz..those auntie will very high n scream in the class..its true..! haha..n keep saying about him after his class..say very high n syoik..haha..!!

N..tat chan qing yi..dat used to be very quiet n never talk about guyz..also talk bout him..keep noticing him..say he is very busy..haha..chan qing yi..gotch..! just go ahead..i support u..muahaha..

bout me..just like to 'gap'..haha..coz really too charm liao..my senior also alwiz say..wah.," he really damn yeng..!!" haha.. he's very nice wen talking to him..n very serious wen training ppl..cool man..

i ever asked him..R u a gay..?! haha..since most of those handsome n charming guy like him..is gay..haha..n he told tat he's not..crazy me..go n ask ppl such a question.. Xp

haha..i hope he will never accidentally bump into my blog..if not..I'll die..haha..

n of coz..besides him..still got others la..those members..my senior,eleven..said there's a guy look like Daniel Wu..n yes he is..haha..bout others..of coz..got..but they R gay..haha..handsome guy in kl..mostly is gay la..

n leng lui..sure got alotz also la..my guy senior,Patrick..only greet those leng lui..=.= haha..

working at FF..sure got it benefit..not really interested with them but can 'gap' them..not bad..if not..how boring the working life is..haha..

besides working..can work out over there with FOC..haha..how good..dat day,after working..go do gym lo..but too bad..too many machines dunno how to use..haha..i mean with the right way..so with my friendly smile..i go to the personal trainer corner..n asked one of the personal trainer to teach me..haha..and i manage to do it..haha..actually if members want personal trainer,there hv to pay more den 1000++ to get one for 10 times training..one personal training session for one hours cost more then 120++..those personal trainer every hour also very treasure coz the paid due to commission..no basic salary..if they waste time on me..means they hv no salary on tat hour..haha..but they very good la..teach me also..

den i start work out lo..after run for 30 min..rest for awhile..start doing others..now..its the use of the PT..show me one by one,how to exercise with those machines..haha..due to me,too playful..n keep laughing wen training..he's like..duh..=.=!.. saying: "hey..wen i train members,they very serious de lo..not like u..where got ppl keep laughing wen doing exercise?! " haha..sorry lo..coz his face really too cute..a 19 years old guy..with baby face..so funny wen so serious teaching to do those actions..muahaha..sorry..i din mean it..!! wut a cutie guy he is..nice to bully..who ask him only 19 n younger than me few day..haha..! anyway..sorry n thankz alot,kelvin..

actually..kinda fun to work there also..everyone asked me why i wanna work at there? is it bcoz of my sister?! wut i answer is dunno..coz the real reason is..coz can do gym free + got salary sum more..! muahaha..naughty leh me.. Xp

k la..this time till here first la.. i wanna go n get ready liao..i wanna go work out again..with qing yi n eleven.. hope i can slim down as soon as possible la..haha..!!~

c ya..

=)
-waikuen-

my working dayz ^^

2009-01-07T15:36:00.003+08:00

haha..long time din update my bloggie already..kinda busy..hehe..

yea..i am working recently.. started from 5th of january 2009..

today 7th of january..after two day of working..guess wut..?!?!

haha..i got my day off..

so happy..after two day work den got day off..haha..

can rest..so can update my bloggie..^^

hmm about my jobs..not bad is wut i can say..i got nice nice uniform..white colour blouse,deep blue colour de skirt,blazer, n scarf..totally free..

my jobs not so hard also..just hv to greet members..scan things..do vcd/dvd rental n return..payment...etc...

my daily routine is.. " hello good morning/ afternoon/ evening.. OR bye..see u again.. OR may i have ur membership card pls.. " haha..

all my others team members very nice..malay or indian who noe cantonese..others is chinese..esp..qing yi..haha..so good can work together..come together..break together..go back together..do things together..so good..got ppl accompany..no need alone..until my teams members said.." wah..y both of u so 'ngam' de..?!" haha..coz we greet members at the same time..so lo..

my woking condition also not bad..music played all the time..with cooling air-cond..clean n nice.. can c different kind of ppl..many leng zai n leng lui..cool one,nice one..foreigner..n many more..kinda funny also..of coz with of of those special members..my senior said them 'psyco'..haha..but for me..nothing also la..working ma..+ in this world really got different kind of ppl de la..no need to get angry..^^

working at leisure mall there..i met alot of ppl..cochranean i mean..haha..some of them kinda shock wen c me..my uniform wear with high-heel..haha..so suprised tat i will work there..haha..really so suprised?!?! wondering..hmm... =.= n of coz i saw some passing by but they din c me..which going to neway to sing k..i think..haha..

next..guess wut..?!?! there's once a guy(uncle) come over me n qing yi n said.." hey galz..i realised dat u smile alot hurr?!? actually wen member come in..sure with blackie face..u no need to smile to us worr..!!"
den both of us smile again..den i replied him.. " smile good ma..can brings happiness to others..wen they come in with unhappy face..but after smile with them,den they will hv a nicer mood.." lolz..!!

but actually..is we requested to do so by senior, my manager..but of coz..we willing to do so la..not being force..haha..

everything seems good in there..so far..but one thing is..my leg is killing me..!! pain like hell man..tat stupid 'high-heel'..! actually i already bought the one with the shortest heel..one inch got ar?! but still..! haiz.. guess i still not biasa with it gua.. >.<

hmm..working so far..hehe..two day actually..ok ok la.. wish all my coming day will be as smooth as now la..nothing bad happen..!! lolz..^^

actually i wish to update more post de..but i really busy..many draft n ideas but no time to post it..haiz..so hv to let it be lo..hmm....

oh yea..my off day is every Wednesday..if u all wanna date me out..find this day ba..haha..but guess also no one wanna date me out de la..lolz..!

p/s..nothing bout my working..just too happy..! i just bought Fahrenheit latest album..!! ( yue lai yue ai ~ love u more n more ) muahaha..!~just wanna share my happiness here..hehe..coz guess all tat view my blog..all is my beloved frenz..hehe..

c ya..!!~

=)

ur truly,
-waikuen-

my holidayz..^^

2009-01-04T01:31:00.012+08:00

.:: my holidayz.. ::.

first destination : CaMeRon HighLands

tea farm..standing up here to take some photo shot..really nice view^^

the highest mountain of Cameron highlands : top of Gunung Brinchang.. 6600+ feet..tat time is raining heavily n so windy..i'm standing at a tower up there..imagine how cold i am tat time.. @@ i love here..!!~

the hotels dat i stay in Cameron highlands..Century Pines Resort..not bad..kinda nice..^^

my bedroom..with two bed + one extra bed..for me,my sister n my cousin sister.

enjoying the tea from cameron valley in my hotel room + taking a mirror pic..haha..the tea so nice..hmm..so warm..love it..haha..

strawberry farm + cactus farm

colourful cactus..

tomatoes trees..

giant pumpkins

wishing pond at the farm there..i throw a coin there n make a wish..n the coin dropped exactly in tat certain 'gold container' down there..haha..

next destination : Penang

the hotel i stayed in Penang..Vistana hotel..

view from my room..i stayed at the highest floor of the hotel..28th floor..kinda scary wen look down..but really cool..haha..can see super sea view^^

another nice view from my room^^

the next day..reached at penang hill..^^

the train tat v need travel to reach the top of the penang hill..

really nice view up there..at the top of the penang hill..can c penang bridge n rainbow^^ love it..!!~

next..to kek lok shi..my destination..to climb up all those stairs to reach the top..haha..!

tortoises on the way to kek lok shi..

yea..! i'm here..the highest floor of kek lok shi..hv to climb many stairs..but cool..! haha..

one of the view of bay nearby the penang gurney plaza..

really nice view..!~ love it alotz..hehe..

here's some of the pic about my holidays..love it alotz..!~ more pic n blog post will be update later/ soon.. kinda busy+ lazy recently..will not online alwiz..i guess..summore i gonna start work liao..haha..

enjoy those pic ba..!~

love ya..!!~

-waikuen-

4th Jan 2009

04:05 am

寂寞暴走 MV - Fahrenheit飛輪海

2009-01-04T01:11:00.000+08:00

interview?!? haha..

2008-12-20T23:41:00.003+08:00

haha..

after so long staying at home..its time to look for a job..coz i almost bankrupt already..only shopping,just outgoing but no income..too bad...

from beginning i only got one target..the only job dat i wanna go for it..haha..

so..i went for an interview,together with qing yi..

wen i arrived there..only i realised, i nvr bring all my cert,resume,fotocopy of my id,etc..as it stated down at de application form there..haha..

after asking the application form,we started to fill it up..but too bad..no pen..haha..(super blur)..i brought nothing.only myself..so hv to ask pen from them..den started to fill de form..guess wut..the form got about 5 pages.. @_@ all in english..+ i nvr fill in such a form b4..ends up, taking so many time over there to fill it up,till the manager come to us,still haven finish..(the manager give us alots of time to fill it actually) =_= awwwhh..there's so many question dat i dunno how to fill it up..tot wanna leave it blank..but stated at de form " no space should be left blank" duh.. but in the ends..still blank..haha..

so wut to do..hv to tell the manager dat i dunno wut to write lo..=_=..nvr brings cert,resume,no working experience..haha..fuh..luckily bout the cert,the manager say its not a problem..luckily..^^

den v started our INTERVIEW..not as hard as i expect..haha..luckily i still noe to talk n answer..just a few of simple question..den the ends of my interview..the result is..wait for call for the second interview..

hurr..interview again..?!? tot the big boss wanna interview once again..

after about one++ week..waiting for the call..so hv to hold my phone 24hours so dat i wont missed the call..but tired of waiting..so kinda give up already..as my mom say..so long already la..wont call u de la..so onward..i not holding my phone all the time liao..but hu noes..!! wen the day i lefted my phone at my bedroom..there's 4 missed call..+ 1 message wen i checked it in the midnight..bout 2am..GOSH...!!!! wut the...the msg is regarding the job dat i applied..they ask me to contact them wen i can..really...duh....

luckily..i wen interview together with qing yi..they contact qing yi n ask us to go for the second interview..at last..i din contact them la..haiz..shows dat i'm not sincer at all..

second interview..! duh..pretend clever..brings all my cert n resume go along..but at last no use..really not important..=_=

first thing..form again..!! haizzz... but this time de form..much more easier than the previous one dat i filled..one page only..haha..n its so easy..only name,id number,address,phone number + position i wanna applied..how good if the first one also so easy..

still the same..after form den interview lo..kinda fast..just b4 tat waiting for bout half an hour b4 get interviewed..they r so busy.. the process so fast.. n easy also..cant expect it..not as scary as i think..tot get interviewed one by one..but me n qing yi together..haha..

the results is..i get my jobs..!!~ haha.. ( i think) hehe..coz still hv to wait for the confirmation call..but in my opinion..i'm in..we r in..me n qing yi is in together..!!~ haha..due to we r fresh graduated..but they willing to give us a chance..so we r working for part time for one month time(trial) den will bcum full time..so do our salary..^^

i will start working at January..as i requested..play first..i wanna go for vacation for next week..haha..play n relax first b4 i start my jobs..^^

hmm..i think i love my jobs also la..coz its kinda convenient also..near to my house..^^ uniforms provided..under air cond..salary not too low i think..work in shift..+ (the main point dat i want actually) is free membership..!!~ haha..!! ^^

talking so long..guess wut job i am going to work?!?

haha..i'm working in..........

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*Leisure Mall..
*FITNESS FIRST..
*ppl so called receptionist/ cust service..but they call it Front Of House..
*free uniforms provided..
*got ppl send me there n fetch me home..( my mom/my sis,her bf dat working at FF too)save transportation fees..
*near to my house..
*bout 10 minutes can arrive there from my house..
*free membership..!! haha.. the membership fees kinda expensive,if i not mistaken..haha..can keep fit..! i wanna slim down..haha..^^

so..in my opinion..
not only got free fitness first membership,dat allow me to go in n enjoys all the facility here as i like,to keep fit..got SalaRy summore..^^ haha..

actually i kinda satisfied my my coming jobs..i guess it might not as easy as i think by working there..especially will get scolded by some "stubborn member"..but nvm..! i will hold..n try my best to work there..!! since every jobs also might get scolded by boss,i think..hehe..

with all these benefits..i think i can de..!! must can..!! haha..

but too bad..high heels needed.. =(

haha..

anyway..just wish me all of luck n all the best..^^

p/s : i think they still need workers gua..just have a try,come in for a walk in interview..n work with me..if u all interested..no matter wut kind of jobs in fitness first,including cleaner etc will hv free memberships too..haha..!!~ not bad..just for an interview.. but dont tell i recommend..hehe.. n dont rampas my job..i noe u all more good than me..haha..!~

or just come n find me if u wanna join fitness first memberships..give me earn some commission?! haha..^^

c ya..

=)
waikuen

LiFe In CoChRane ~ SwEEt MemoRies witH aLL My BeLovEd fReNz..!!~

2008-12-16T03:06:00.004+08:00

Create Your Own
here's some pic of my life in cochrane with all my beloved frenz..^^
this will be one of my best memories for my life..
glad to noe u all..
its really my pleasure..!~

lots of love,
waikuen

Love You More and More (越来越爱) - Fahrenheit

2008-12-16T01:19:00.000+08:00

Control Ur Temper..

2008-12-08T22:50:00.003+08:00

NAILS IN THE FENCE

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence.

Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all.

He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.

The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, 'You
have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. But It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound will still be there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.

Remember that friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us.'

YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I AM HONORED!

Please forgive me if I have ever left a 'hole' in your fence.

LiFe In CocHRanE..!~

2008-12-03T19:26:00.003+08:00

without realising..it has been almost 2 years in cochrane..
remembering the moment i entered cochrane..sweet n bitter momories i hv..still fresh in my mind..i enjoyed my orientation the most..its one of my best memories in this school..
den i first joined science 1 b4 i transfer to art 2..nice moment i have too..

....:: life in art 2 ::....

[~**= SwEEt MeMoRiEs =**~]

i still remember..
wen i first joined art2..(after one/two week in sc1) frankly tell..i dont like this class.mayb i really hv nice moment in sc1 there..until i think sc1 is alwiz the best..haha..i dont like to stay in art2..whenever no teacher come..i sure will go back to sc1..haha..sorry to say so..

i still remember..
i alwiz keep making noise in tat really quiet de class..haha..biasalah..i'm alwiz loud n noisy..i keep complaine art2..n said..come on..!! everyone..cheer up..dont be so quiet pls..but no one carez me..haha..since i'm just a newcomer..den keep complain..boring ppl studying boring subject { history } in the boring class..!! summore the class is outside de gents' toilet.. the decoration just so so..actually really bored.. in my mind..this class only one word to mention tat is..BORING.. dunno my class members still remember tat i really do keep making noise n complaining anot..haha..i noe..i really sengaja wanna disturb u all studying so quiet there..haha..SORRY..!!~

i still remember..
besides me..still got three more newcomers..tat's.
1) jun jie..(the only one dat tranfer from sc1 together with me)
2) anis ( the one dat just back from ns)
3) ronald ( actually i dunno bout this guy,even his name..haha..just noe he's from dunno sabah or sarawak..hear from ppl)
i'm glad to have them become newcomer together with me..as i'm not alone..
in the beginning..i only noe to ask them..have u finished the homeworks?!? coz slightly cant catch up since late to join art2.. coz i alwiz din do hw..haha..started to worry wen they answered yes..haha..ronald is the one i alwiz ask..coz we same same..din do hw..sorry la..tot wanna ask jj..but everytime his answer sure will disappointed me..coz he sure will finished..anis..hehe..in beginning she finished everything too..i guess..coz me too bad..influence her gua..hehe..

i still remember..
wen time passed by..we get to noe each others..maybe we get to noe everyone liao..so the class not as quiet as last time..mayb..i influence them with my cheerful n enthusiasm..haha..perasaan..then our friendship grow..getting a little bit closer with the angel-guardian game..passing mail around..with the mailbox dat i decorate n do..^^ but to bad..the time v have is so limited until v cant really bcum like a family as others class..( i alwiz so envy others class so unite) den its come to the ends of the year 2007..the ends of our lower six life..

i started to love our class o0o..!!!!!!!!~

i still remember..!
at last..v come to year 2008..as a upper six..the gor gor n jie jie of the school..haha..n of coz..i love my beloved class actually..U6A2..!!~ many moments we have together here..in cochrane..in the little class..in tat corner..( side to toilet too )..but yet..we still have our happy time there..

i still remember..
mayb its the last year already..n the friendship has build in us..the class seem so harmony this year..n i love it..not only with our class members..with art3 also..there's very good friendship between art2 n art3..this two art classes..live harmonies together happily..altot sometimes..teachers really like to compare between us..mayb taking same subject gua..haha..

i still remember..
our beloved teachers..

** cik chan- our economy teacher.. "pelajar" is her fav quote..dunno why..the teacher i scare the most actually..coz i alwiz so weak in her subject + i alwiz fail to complete her homeworks..as she is the most hardworking teacher among all..but everyone love her..she's very nice..my koperasi teacher..the beloved teacher among art2 n art3 student..^^

** pn subathra- our class teacher..i have heard her big name n 'good things' tat she done b4 from art3 last year since she start teaching us this year..the most " hard-working" teacher..asking students do do her jobs is her fav thing..haha.. Xp

** pn sarinah- very nice teacher she is..our beloved history teacher..i like her actually..stay near my house..good memory she hv..coz she keep saying n rmb tat she met me b4 near my house there..haha..n of coz..history teacher ma..she alwiz so dedicated..nice wear she hv..everytime wen she entered our class..v like to discover her attire..coz from tudung until her high heels,even handbag as well..match perfectly..n different everytime..haha.. ^^

** pn goh- our beloved muet teacher..kinda funny n nice teacher she is..very kind n teached us many things as well..she's so touched wen we sang happy birthday song to her wen her birthday..she praised us so caring..rmb all the teachers b-day..haha.. ^^

** pn srivali- our pa teacher..everytime essay no need us to do..will tell us all the rangka after the question..so tired of copying since she's reading it so fast..frankly tell..i din copy it..haha..n i saw many of us din copy it as well..haha..she like to tell stories..many many stories..actually she tell stories in our class more den teaching actually..my beloved class mate noe tat..haha.. ^^

** en shukor- our pengajian perniagaan teacher..the only guy teacher tat teaching us..he has a very fierce look..with his rotan..but everytime he entered our class..he sure will with his nice n warm smile ..he is a good n nice teacher actually..not in teaching,sorry to say..but his friendly with us..we alwiz so happy wen he hv cases to handle n cant enter our class..haha..busy person he is..dicipline teacher ma.. ^^

hmm..so long already my blog post..but.. to be continue..!!!
wait for me..!!~
i still hv so much to say about..
those sweet memories together with u all..!!~^^

i really love u all so much..!!!!!!!~~~~
my beloved U6A2..
^^

lots of love,
waikuen
3rd dec 2008

nearer n nearer upon freedom..

2008-12-02T19:49:00.003+08:00

yea..getting nearer to freedom..
coz only ONE paper left..macroeconomic..
for the STPM dat killing me..most of the upper sixes,perhaps?!?

phew....
at last..!!
altot it just last for 8 days..
but it seems sooooo long for me..
n now..its the time..
hurray..!

today having pp2..
not as difficult as pp1..
luckily..
if not..sure fail..hopefully no pls..!!
haha..

this day addicted searching for some nice poem tim..
as wut i have posted previously..
read it ba..
hehe..

guess wut's my plan after the last paper?!
its....
sleep..!!~ swt..
haha..
lack of rest for these exams moment..
i wanna sleep as much as i can..
den play as crazy as i can..
n enjoy my holidays..!!!!~
muahaha..

but after these..
too bad..
hv to make decision again.. hate it*
i hate to make decision..
whether continue study or working..

but for sure..
cannot rotten at home anymore..
almost reach 20..
cant just ask for $$..
need to work..
have to face the reality.. =(

den..
after work..
after get results..
how?!
decision again..
decision decision decision..!!!!
hate it hate it hate it..!!

haha..
however..
life still goes on..
stepping in another path of life..
the age of 20..
here i come..

Xp

-waikuen-
2 dec 2008
2010 pm

Aren't Tou TiRed ?!?!

2008-12-02T19:40:00.003+08:00

Aren't You Tired?

Aren’t you tired?
Tired of doing things
Things that you know we can do
Things that you always love to do

Aren’t you tired?
Tired of all the foolishness
Foolishness that we didn’t meant to do
Foolishness that we can’t get through

Aren’t you tired?
Tired of being humiliated
Humiliated in a painful way
Humiliation that comes your way

Aren’t you tired?
Tired of being left alone
Alone till the dawn
Hoping someone to come alone

Aren’t you tired?
Tired of all the people
People who can’t understand
People who never want to understand

Aren’t you tired?
Tired of all the expectation
Expectation that you can’t reach
But nobody wants to teach

Aren’t you tired?
Coz if your not
Well I am
Tired of being tired ..

Lonely is Just One Word..

2008-12-01T18:04:00.001+08:00

Lonely is just one word chosen to represent so much
To tell of feelings inside that the senses cannot touch

Lonely can be in the teardrops on a bereaved person’s cheek
Lonely can be in the silence of sorrows too deep to speak

Lonely can haunt a deserted room that Laughter once made proud
Lonely surrounds you when you’re alone or finds you in a crowd

Lonely is heard in echoed footsteps of a departing friend
Lonely penetrates the solitude of nights that will not end

Lonely will not listen to the pleadings of a broken heart
Lonely stays and torments until new Love shatters it apart ..

I Believe In You..

2008-12-01T18:00:00.001+08:00

I believe in your rising and falling

I believe in your smiles and tears

i believe in your joys and pains

i believe in your seed and name

i believe in your sunrise and sunset

i believe in your clouds and raindrops

i believe in your moon and galaxy of stars

i believe in you struggles and hopes

i believe in your desires and angels

i believe in your soili believe in your future

i believe in your generation

'cos i believe in you ...

I Believe. . .

2008-12-01T17:51:00.003+08:00

I believe that the sun shines after the rain
I believe if you don't get hurt you'll never gain
I believe in not doing things the easy way
I believe that being selfish doesn’t pay

I believe in a second chance
I believe in a life long romance
I believe there is life after death
And standing up to a life of mess

I believe in love at first sight
I believe that revenge isn’t right
I believe that first impressions last
And there is nothing better then a good laugh

I believe that dreams do come true
I believe there's destiny for me and you
I believe that good things come to those who wait
I believe love never arrives too late

I believe something good comes from something bad
I believe that for tears of happiness there are tears of sad
I believe everyone has a guardian angel
And the good you do will be rewarded well

I believe sometimes there is no explanation
I believe money can't buy people's affection
I believe you don't know what you've got until it's gone
I believe a new day arrives with every dawn

I believe a smile can be contagious
I believe in being very outrageous
I believe in living with no regrets
I believe that life is as good as it gets

I believe that God watches over us
I believe the little things are worth the fuss
I believe you have each friend for a reason
I believe you will get punished for treason

I believe that what comes first is family
I believe we should all live in harmony
I believe in making the most of a beautiful day
And it's not the end until everything's okay

I believe absence makes the heart grow fonder
I believe you will lose if you sit and wonder
I believe every experience teaches you a lesson
And nothing cures better then a drinking session

I believe everyone has one true love
I believe sometimes we need a little shove
I believe the whole world is a stage
I believe we only get better with age

I believe that to learn you have to live
I believe that to love someone you have to give
I believe one moment can change your life
And there's still help when you’re in strife

I believe everyone has one true friend
I believe love helps a broken heart mend
I believe in the power of a song
And things will change before too long

I believe living is the best experience
I believe in not laughing at other people’s expense
I believe it’s hard to watch a lover leave
And when they’re gone all you can do is breath

I believe to always look on the bright side
I believe that life is just one big ride
I believe when I die people will grieve
But it’s ok because I believe

three more papers to go..!!~

2008-11-30T02:45:00.003+08:00

hmm..last day of november lo..

without realising..the year has come to the end..

seriously..dunno y..i feel dat this time really passed so fast..

n yea..still got three more papers to go.. pengajian am 1 , pengajian perniagaan 2 n makroekonomi..

after this..freedom is upon me..!!~

really the end of my high school life..no more school uniform..no more school rulez..n bla bla bla..~

the another path of my life..!!! i'm coming..!!!~~~

getting older n older..huhuhu..stepping in the 20th..

challenges..here i come..!!!~

btw..love my high school life..enjoyed it very very much..

love ya..

-wk-
30th nov 2008
0255 a.m

all about examz..

2008-11-28T02:28:00.002+08:00

haizZz..

badly done in examz..

no mood to study..

no time to study..

no concentration to study..

in the end..

badly done..

=(

23rd nov 2008

2008-11-24T03:20:00.004+08:00

after holding for this long..in the end..he lefted us..

in the brand new morning of 23rd nov..the 1st news dat i get is..my grandfather passed away..

first reaction sure, hurr?!? y suddenly passed away.?!

yesterday my uncle went to visit him at the health care home( he is staying there coz he's sick,its hardly for us to take care him,n there got doctor vif nurse,more professional), he still ok..n everytime my mom went to visit him..he's still fine..but this morning. . . .

mayb we already hv the preparation dat he will leave us anytime..coz he is already 82 years old n ill..therefore,no one cry wen we hear this news..

early in the morning..all the uncles n aunties gather at my house..the sons n daughters of my garandfather..do some discussion bout everythings..

after tat..we went to xiao en unit..at taman midah there..where we put my grandfather body for a few days to let all our relatives to meet him for the last time..

b4 v went there..everyone still look fine..not crying..sad of coz..n i keep asking myself not to cry..n i really din cry..not bcoz i'm really tat bad..but..he already passed away..it's reality..no matter how hard v cry..it will still de same..

but in the moment i reached there..i walked toward his coffin..i saw him sleeping peacefully in there..he looks really thin..coz last time due to sickness,getting thinner n thinner.. at tat moment..really cant expect..i nearly shed tears..he looks so pity..sleeping in the coffin..n he have left us forever..nearly shed tears but i hold back..but i saw my aunties dat is not crying b4 this,shed tears..

mayb v din expect tat..but wen the moment v look at him..some kind of feeling comes to us..kinda...haiz..dunno how to express those kind of feeling..but i guess everyone saw tat also will hv the same feeling.. the sudden feeling..like wanna cry..

few more days..he will get bury..at the nilai memorial park..everyones,all my relatives,cousin sisters n brothers,my family members n etc..will accompany him until the last moment b4 he get buried.. EXCEPT ME...

no matter wen is the funeral..tuesday or wednesday..i still cant make it..i got exams..how am i gonna attend it?! i cant skip this exams.. altot the dont blame me..but i feel bad..

as all my relatives noe..as my mom keep saying..i'm the only one grandchilden dat he loved the most since young..since i'm small..since i'm a kid..he loved me the most compared with all my cousins n my own sister..but yet..i'm the only ONE dat cant accompany him till the last moment b4 he get burried..

wut to do..?! my mummy n others said is faith..dat he most beloved grandchildren cant sent him for the last time..

i....

but no matter how..its reality..dat cant be change..hv to accept it..

at last he rest peacefully n has left us forever...

may all the illness n anxiety far away to u..may peace be with u..

goodbyez...

-wk-
24 nov 2008
04:00 am

hahaha..!!~

2008-11-17T22:45:00.003+08:00

tomorrow is my first test for my STPM..

but guess wut i am thinking?!

about study?!

no no no..!!!~

haha..

in my mind..all is full with HIM..!!~ aaron yan ya lun.. haha..!!

he's so so so so handsome, cute, charm n many many more..haha..

awww..i act like little gals la..still chasing for stars..but..hu care?! haha.. love him..!!

gosh..i just cant wait to go to his concert..!!!

feel so happy n 'xing fu'..altot just looking at his pic..!!

haha..ignore me..i'm crazy..crazy for him..!! ^^

view his blog..!!~

www.wretch.cc/blog/arronbubest

^^

. . . . . .

2008-11-17T05:52:00.002+08:00

17th nov 2008..its almost 6 am in de morning..

one more day to go for my stpm begin..

didnt sleep for de whole night..

guess wut am i doing?!

studying?!

NO..!!!!!!

i'm playing games all de night..till now..still playing....

wasting all de very very precious time to study..ends up playing game all night long...

wk really terrible....

haizzz...

speechless izzit!?!?!

me either..........

HELP..!!!

2008-11-15T21:28:00.003+08:00

3 more days to go..

.:: STPM ::.

haiz....really feel myself very terrible..i have no mood to study at all..everyday just wasting time doing nothing..stpm is here..but yet...

really dunno wut happen to me..pls give me some spirit to study..!! i need help..!!

i'm lost..

i dunno where should i start my revision..i have no target..i have no motive..haiz...really dunno how to express..

sometimes wen ppl sms me saying tat i can score very well in exams..but..i noe myself..i din study..how am i gonna do well in examz?! the more u all say like this..the more i feel i'm useless..

this moment..everyone sure studying very very hard..except me..the results is..the will score very well except me..i really really hope dat i can study like them also..but i cant..i feel so suffering..haiz..i noe i cant do it.....

pls dont put high hope on me..i will just disappoint everyone....haha..wut am i saying about..no one will put hope on me..no one will carez me either..

arh..!!

haiz..till when i can stop behaving like this?!

i need help...............!!!

i miss u all..!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-07T21:22:00.005+08:00

07-11-2008

hmm..this is really the last day for us lo..the upper sixers n form 5 de..v started our 'holiday' formally until the SPM n STPM day arrive..

really last day for us to meet those others form de student liao..hurrrrr...so0o0o sad...

seriously i really very very sad n just feel like dont wanna leave them..dont wanna leave cochrane..i miss jwolin,francken,vuan zhin,fiona n many many more..haha..

today i really feel like crying..my tears almost fall down but luckily no one saw it..haha..coz kinda sad..dunno y..i just feel like being throw behind by others..they just left like tat..

i really dont like the feeling of being left behind without realising my appearance there..

i'm just like all alone... =(

today after school..wen i just being left behind..i saw jwolin..haha..luckily she din saw my tears..haha..i wipe it away ady..i tot wanna say goodbyez to her n walk to jj all alone.. she is waiting for mark, hon sim n yenchin to have their lunch together..n i accom her to wait for them awhile but at last ends up with me,jwo n yc having lunch together in kim gary..its fun especially with the super lame person,ee yen chin..haha..

after dat..yc leave first due to he is having tuition at 2:40..after paying the bills..me n jwo continue walking n chit-chating around in jj..still de same..we hv endless topic to talk..haha..we stay at mph n sit there n keep talking n talking..without realising..until it's almost 6pm..haha.. btw..jwo..u cried easily..scared me eh..haha..

hmm...

actually...i love cochrane eh..i enjoyed my school life in cochrane very much..having them as my frenz lighten up my life alotz...i miss u miss u n miss u all..my frenz..my class mate..n everyone..very very much..

i miss my class..every corner full with my memories..every notice board dat i hv staying back late to complete it as a head of notice board..the class time table..the pelan kedudukan..the misi n visi class..the one with everyone bday stated down on dat special corner..the mail-box..every table dat i wrapped it up nicely with present papers..

most important is the two years memories with all my class mates in de class..i miss it..

n outside de class room..i miss de day jwo n francken come n find me..chating so happy behind there until they missed three period for ponteng class chat with me..haha..sorry..!~

i miss my eb room dat i used to stay there for most of the time to do my duties..the bilik koperasi dat i used to duty on every tuesday n friday..the ubk room tat i used to lepak m ponteng class chit chating with nuriyah,amirul,johari,anis n my counselling teachers..

alotz of fun i have in cochrane..

thx everyone for giving me such a nice memories for this long..

still the same..n most important..i miss u the most..! francken n jwolin.. haha..my beloved brother n sister..!!

all the very best for u all..n forget me not..!!~

love =)

-waikuen-

~ 朋友是永恆的感動~

2008-11-04T00:04:00.003+08:00

朋友
你好嗎？
一句親切的問候
一個會心的微笑
似一抹柔風輕撫紅唇
永遠讓人感動！

心情落寞的時候
一句你好嗎？
一聲輕輕的問候
恰似一縷溫情溢滿心間
永遠讓人感動！

遇到困難四處無助時
一句我幫你
淡淡的關懷纏繞身邊
永遠讓人感動

奔波忙碌一天
拖著疲憊的身體回家時
一句你辛苦了
這般溫柔的疼愛
永遠讓人感動……

無論跋涉的腳步行於多遠
想到在暗夜裡風雨中孤寂時
始終有朋友為我點燈撐傘撫慰
總會有種神奇的力量
永遠讓人感動

真正的朋友
其實無所謂遠近
其實無所謂性別
也許他身在咫尺
也許他遠在天涯
只要彼此相擁，互相關照
這份相知相思相助相契
就是人間最溫柔最愜意最暢快最美好的意境
就是人間最真摯的感動

聲音披著風
如春雨下降給我撫慰令我動容
也許就是我們的笑我們的快樂
洋溢成文字關愛了彼此的心
這個虛擬的網路世界
其實也有許許多多真誠的朋友
真因為如此，才讓你我如此對一切眷戀不舍

在家依父母
出門靠朋友
朋友是能與你風雨同舟同甘共苦的人
朋友是會讓你在心底深處常常牽掛的人
朋友就是你能信任他，他也了解你的人
朋友是能分享你的成功你的喜悅而從不忌妒你的人
朋友是能傾聽煩惱並給予有益建議而不泄露隱私的人
朋友是能在你需要時給予你幫助而不求任何回報的人
朋友也是讓你常常不由得自己去深深依戀的人
人一生可以貧困，但再貧困不能窮得沒有朋友
人一生可以富有但即使再富有也不能富得忘了朋友

生活中
人世間
朋友就是一筆財富
每一次激蕩
每一份歡快每一份驚喜，
每一句問候每一句關懷……
都是一瓣瓣的心香……

什麼是朋友？
朋友是快樂時容易忘記的人
朋友是痛苦中第一個想找的人
朋友是打擾你了不用說對不起的人
朋友是幫助你了你不用說謝謝的人
朋友是你步步高升也不用改變稱呼的人
朋友是扎根在你腦海中想摔也摔不掉的人

朋友：你有這樣的朋友嗎？
如果有
請你一定珍惜
因為失去了將不會復得
以誠相見心誠則靈
以心相許心靈相通
讓我們永遠是朋友
朋友:讓我為你捧上一杯幽香陣陣的清茶
帶上一份心與心的相通相融
輕輕地說一聲：你好嗎？
朋友是永恆的感動！！！

你我雖不常見面.但關懷的心永不改變
你我雖不常聯絡.但信件聯繫著你和我
有時間看信是一種幸福
願你和我ㄧ起分享這屬於我們的秘密時間吧 !!!
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